Anxiety about a decision

[relax100]

I know complimentary and alternative medicine (CAM) is a controversial subject and I have had good and bad experiences with it.  I recently made a decision to change a CAM provider even though I think the person was helping me.  I was uncomfortable with this person's approach towards me and intimidated about discussing it.  I do think the new person will be good to but have yet to start.

I thought the blood pressure spike was caused by the old provider but now I'm thinking it was my reaction to the person and I'm already second guessing a decision to change.

I go through this any time I make a change and this is not really a major life change.  Every decision I have made has usually worked out but I can't make a decision without having anxiety in some way.

Please offer suggestions here.  Thanks.

[RubyWitch]

Well Hon, your right that CAM IS a highly controversial issue. But this forum is not really set up as a debate site..........what you WILL get are a lot of differing opinions and that is all. Bottom line is what YOU think. You said your current (last?) CAM provider WAS helping but you felt uncomfortable and intimidated by them. Very excellent reasons to change ANY provider/therapist/dentist/vet/butcher/baker or candlestick maker.
We often experience a "spike" in our BP at the docs. It's called "white coat anxiety," or some varitation on that theme. Which is why BP is often repeated at the END of the exam, when we are far more relaxed.
But what I'm reading into your post is that it wasn't JUST the fact of an increase in your BP that was causing you to feel uncomfortable, but rather, this person specifically. But you are now second guessing this? You think your new practitioner will be good, too, but haven't as yet begun to see them? Are you second guessing that as well? You do state that making changes and decisons create anxiety for you. I think we all do that to a certain extent and I think it's normal and healthy to questions ourselves, but not to the point that we become paralyzed to make a decision. Change is not easy, at least for some of us, but you have given us an iron clad reason why you should make THIS change.
Ask yourself what the worst thing that could happen is. That you will find you don't like this new one either? That you've made a mistake? What is going to happen to you if that IS the case? You fix it. You have choices. I wouldn't recommend you go back to someone who made you uncomfortable. I would continue to seek out someone who was a good "fit" for me. Like in real life, whatever that means, the old "one size fits all" claim is seldom true.
You've said that every decison you have made usually turns out............so, trust yourself to make another one!
Peace
Greenlydia