Bad morning...could use some support...

[Autumnx1003]

I had a bad morning this morning.  It was the worst in I've had in awhile.  I woke up and my heart was racing, and when I checked it, the rate was 149 and then jumped to 155 briefly.  It went down eventually.  But it scared me so bad.  No matter how many times this happens to me, it scares me SO BAD every time.  I was especially bothered that it was above 130, because usually when this happens, it is only around 120.  (I measure with a monitor, this is how I know).  I thought I was doing well.  I had not had a bad episode for awhile. I thought I was finally getting control over this manifestation of anxiety. Now I know that I'm not.  I know that there are probably triggers...like the fact that we are closing on our first purchased home at the end of March, and my husband just found out that he's probably going to Afghanistan sometime in April..which means that he will only get to be with me in the new house for about 2 weeks.  Yes, this is stressful...especially since we also live in a new area where I have very few friends, and no job yet.  I know there are plenty of triggers for this.  BUT...I was doing ok with all of this...until this morning.  I'm still pretty shaken up, even though my HR is down in the 70-80's right now (normal for me). It feels like I'm afraid to move because I dont want to make it beat fast anymore.  I just wish there was some way I could get rid of this whole fast HR thing!  It feels so debillitating sometimes.  :(  Anyone suffering with me today?

[silverberg]

Throw your monitor away or give it to someone else for awhile! that is only adding to your anxiety! why do you need to monitor your HR??

[razzy2]

I have suffered with anxiety for years on and off.  I know what you are feeling.  Anxiety attacks can hit you at anytime.  You don't have to be under stress for it to occur.  I try to exercise when I can. It does help.  When I get an attack I try to deal with it by telling myself you know it is an attack and that nothing else will happen. Take deep breaths and try to calm yourself down.  Hope this helps.  

[dadinTN]

Right there with you each morning Autumn...my biggest comfort comes from the fact that I know this is in my mind...my body is okay and will not fail me.

Take a walk, read a book, say a little prayer asking God to help you get through the difficult morning and each and every day.

As an uniformed bystander...sounds like you've got a lot of good things going for you.  Closing on your first home is awesome (you are going to get an additional $8000 in tax returns...that alone should bring your heart rate down).  You've also obviously got a GREAT husband who is helping us all out.  

You will get through this...just stay positive knowing you will pull through.