new here just need to know i am not alone

[lotus1014]

I am just testing the waters. I have never tried a forum or support group and since nothing i have tried thus far is working i figured the worst that can happen is it wont help. Sadly my husband is not very supportive and is unwilling to even read about it to get an understanding.

I have tried yoga, meditation, therapy, many different medications (i could probably be a pharmacist by now) i have tried the exposure theory of forcing yourself into situations that trigger anxiety. I have tried to track what triggers my attacks and cant pinpoint it. I have had months at a time i could not leave my own home or be near anyone, including loved ones.

On top of anxiety i have severe eczema that can get so bad i cant walk or use my hands and even purified water burns. You can imagine that this condition does nothing to help with my anxiety or my marriage.

[lotus1014]

I tried therapy at many different ages and it never helps me it frustrates me cause they keep telling me to do what i have already tried and most of the things they say are just common sense. I am a very smart, mature, and self aware. I know why i have anxiety. My father has it and i have had a few traumatic experiences.
I have come to terms with the fact that i need medicine to even be able to be around people, i accept that. I know it can take years to find the right combination that will work for me. I know that unless someone has personally been through this they wont understand. Which has been my biggest issue with therapists they claim they understand ( and i know they mean well) but empty pltatudes are waisted on me.

I am not on here because i think it will result in an epiphany for me. I am on here to reassure myself i am not alone and that others face this challenge. My biggest hope with this site is that i might be able to help someone come to terms with themselves and to accept it.

[cj29]

You are definitley not alone in this forum. I have found it very useful in that it sheds light on many different ways that people have overcome and confronted their anxiety.  I also believe that it shows that while we are all unique in our experience with anxiety and panic that there are many times certain patterns that you will see develop as people share their experiences.

I always suggest to keep at it.  In my experience with counseling, it took months to even show me that it was worth my time, but in the end it was the most crucial step I took in confronting my anxiety.  I was very impatient in hoping that I would get results quickly, but found out that it can take some time.

Feel free to share your experiences and ask as many questions as you like!

[lotus1014]

Thank you for taking the time to welcome me. Yes i have done CBT.... I have even tried aroma therapy along with homeopathic therapy using teas, herbal supplements. You know how it is when your desperate, you will try anything.

Yeah the eczema is horrible and of course when it is bad it just goes in a circle. I get anxious because of my eczema ( which i have also gone to extremes to treat) and then my eczema gets worse because i am anxious andit is a never ending cycle

[remar]

Hi, and welcome to Medhelp. I think you will really like this site. The people here do understand what you're going through and they are very supportive.
I'm sorry your husband won't do some research on anxiety. It would really help him to understand what's going on with you.
You've been in therapy. Did you do CBT? If so, did it help any at all?
I understand a little about the eczema. I only have it behind my ears and it drives me crazy! I've tried so many meds for it. I can not imagine having a severe case of it and the itching and burning that goes along with it.
I do hope you like ths site. It reallyis great.