What can I do to get my doctor to do something?

[CJ40689]

I've had generalized anxiety disorder for half a year almost and it it has been the low point of my life so far.  My anxiety is more health related.  My doctor(s) say I'm in good health yet I have multiple problems.  My ultimate fear is death because I love who I have in my life as far as family and friends go and I dont want them to lose me, especially my girlfriend.  I always feel like death is right around the corner for me and it feels like it's going to be some terrible cancer.  The past few months my biggest fear (still is) a brain tumor.  I swear I have one.  No one will believe me but I know my own body.  I've been getting light-headed everyday and I feel overly tired most of the time.  I hate it, but it gets worse.  Just 3 weeks ago I was getting headaches every day for 2 weeks straight.  My doctor thinks they were "tension headaches" which I didnt believe.  The headaches are pretty much gone now for the most part (starting this week).  My vision feels wierd.  When my head is at an angle (me laying back in the couch) I see streaks of light coming from the TV when all the lights are off.  Is that normal and am I just totally overly cautious or is this bad?  I also notice that in the dark, my vision is somewhat grainy, like not perfectly black.  Is that normal?  Is it normal to see spots when looking directly at a car's headlights at night?  The sensitivity to light has been annoying, but it gets worse.  Just tonight when I got home from the gym, I started to feel a random pain on the top right side of my head.  It came and went every half minute or so.  Could this be the tumor hitting a nerve?  Do tumors hit merves out of the blue?  If there is a god, why would he put me through all this?  Why doesnt he just kill me if I'm destined to die soon?  My doctor wont give me the head x-ray that I want.  My doctor wont give me the digestive system x ray that I want for the strange yellow/gray stools ive been having the past 3 months.  I sweat like crazy from nothing too.  That's a sure sign of cancer isnt it?  Ahhh I dont know what to do for all I know I've had cancer and it's spread all over...

[Christine_86]

Ok, time for a reality check. If a person is so determined to think that they have a disease or an illness, they will give themselves symptoms of that illness. I have migrains, and a month ago I was having headaches everyday. Mostly in the right side of my head. I allowed myself (only for a while) to think that it might be a tumor or something. But I finally stopped worrying about it because worrying made the headache worse. And guess what? The headaches went away. And you won't die from GERD's.

My point is, you are being overly sensative to every little thing that your body does. I have floaters in my eyes, but that doesn't mean I'm going blind (although my vision is bad) It almost sounds like you want something bad to happen to you so you can say "I told you so" to your doctor.

As for thinking that God is responsible for your anxiety is just silly. We cause most of our own problems. You need to lighten up, start living your life and stop wallowing in self-pity. If you're that worried about dying, get a second opinion.

I don't mean to come off as snippy, but you need to realize that anxiety is probably causing most of your problems. And you're allowing them to take over your life.

[hales25]

hiya yes i get the eye thing and when im outside and have the floters it makes me feel dizzy and horrible i to am convinced i have a brain tumour but no one will listen so i no how you feel and the light when watching tv

[CJ40689]

I've had multiple tests done.  I've had a liver enzyme test, HIV test, stool specimen, anemia, diabetes, full eye exam by optometrist, and a few more not related.  Everything from those have come back fine.  Should I push my doctor to give me a brain scan?  If I have a tumor, I just want to catch it before it's too late... that wierd pain on the top right of my head is gone I just have a general headache today and I'm lightheaded.  I'm also waiting on the results of 5 blood tests reguarding a redo of diabetes, hepatitus, anemia, thyroid, and something else.  

I have one major question: When you are in a completely dark room, is it perfectly black to you or is it somewhat grainy due to the darkness?  Also, is the night sky perfectly dark blue or kinda grainy for you all?  I'm just curious.  Also, does anyone else have floaters when they look up at the sky?  Does anyone see a streak of light if you look at the TV in a dark room while tilting your head towards the ceiling but eyes on the TV?  

[ativan]

I to have had the brain tumours, I suffer health anxiety just like you, I now beleave I havent a brain tumour, please beleave me when I say if you had a brain tumour you wouldent beable to string a letter together to put on this forum, I feel for you cj as I suffer with the same fear and so does my daughter its hell, has the doc put you on meds? dont worry about the eye things they happen to me that does come with anxiety,
take care
janis.

[daffysoundz]

nothing you said was unusual to anxiety, we all went through the same thing, right now im sweating like crazy on my fore head and i cant control it, one thing il have to jack you up on, there is a god, you may think that its the end of the world, but the lord let things like this happen for a reason, dont look at it as a curse look at it as a blessing, i know its heard to see it like that when your going through so much pain, but that will show you that your still alive. the way i see it the lord let us go through things like this to bring us closer to him, your not going to die from this, hang in there, they will be a brighter day

god bless

[hales25]

hiya i have had the axact same down to a tapart from i get pressure in my right era as well  wen im walking outside i have things in front of my eyes and go dizzy and off balance and my doc 2 wont give me a scan or anything im am 2 convinced there wrong and im dying of a brain tumour

[Brenndy]

please check your e-mail.

[jp79]

oh and all of these problems were also attributed to my anxiety as well, which I didn't accept at first, but eventually had too instead of letting it ruin my life

[jp79]

Hey man, I can say with all honesty I felt the EXACT same way you did. I'm talking the light sensitivity, the strange vision disturbances and night vision, the the pain on side of my head and weeks of headaches. Seriously, I had it all. I had other problems as well which exacerbated my everything you spoke about. I had a Cat Scan and multiple tests and blood work and done and everything was just fine. I looked up all the symptoms of brain tumors and aneurysms and everything imaginable and all it did was freak me out more. I'm no expert, but I think you're just fine. Two things that can be really good for you, no matter how hard it seems, is start exercising, taking nice brisk walks everyday and eventually running. It helps to burn off extra aderenaline and calm your nerves down. If you combine that with a good diet you can really help yourself fight this. That was the big turning point for me. I can't honestly say I had the yellow stools, but I've read that's a possible sign of GERD (gastroesophageal reflux disease) or possibly an infection of the liver. Which CAN be treated and cured rather simply. Keep a log of all your symptoms, when they occur and how often and don't take no for an answer if you truly feel you need top be tested, it can bring peace of mind. If I can help in any way, let me know. Best of luck to you.