in short, I use to do drugs, marijuana, ketamine, mephedrone, speed. I stopped because marijuana gave me very severe panic disorder.. which 2 and a half years later I'm still suffering with, no where near as badly though, it's more like anxiety disorder now.
Anyway i was clubbing yestarday, was kind of anxious because I always am, don't go out much because of anxiety etc etc. and I was drinking, I was not drunk, maybe slightly tipsy. and all of a sudden I felt the feeling of being on mephedrone, as in it was the EXACT same thing, I wasn't 'feeling a bit buzzy' I was literally on mephedrone. so I thought id been spiked!
I run out the club pushing people out of the way i was so panic'ed! and then i come back down and was really confused. I also felt like i could smell the drug on my hands.
Is this a psychotic attack? or a flash back?
Why is it possible that my brain made me feel the exact same feeling of drugs when i haven't taken them? i'm really confused.
I'm not too sure on the exact effects of all these drugs although I can say they are terrible for your brain as you may know already. It is no surprise that these drugs can cause psychotic episodes, panic, anxiety disorders, schizophrenia and others.
Considering you were drinking, even though not officially "drunk" as you say, you might have associated the feelings that the alcohol was giving you to the symptoms of when you had taken mephedrone and this in turn, caused the resultant panic. I can't say for sure, but I would venture an educated guess to say it might've been a psychotic attack but again, I am not fully sure.
Sometimes in the midst of a panic episode, we become "flooded" with memories or thoughts that we have associated with an earlier panic attack, it sort of can repeat itself.
In conclusion, yes our brains can cause us to feel a certain way when we are exposed to whatever things that may resemble another circumstance or object that brought up feelings of serious anxiety or panic. This could be what you had experienced.
You may want to consider seeking treatment for your substance abuse issues. I have mental health issues stemming from significant substance abuse. Your life will not get better until you make a change. I am not teetotal, but I have given up drugs, and when I drink I find it creates negative feelings now that I am in a state of recovery so I am moving towards abstinence. When you find something new to live for, aside from drugs and alcohol, they seem less important and life gets better. Honestly, no one here should be giving you any advice other then seek treatment, because no therapies or mental health recovery effort will be successful when you are self-medicating.
I'm not self medicating anymore. Last time I did drugs was almost three years ago, I threw that towel in the day I realised I was getting ill. I also gave up smoking, and caffeine so I'm clean of everything. And this night im speaking of in the post is the first time I've had a drink in months and months.
My health and sanity is so much more important to me then that, and I'll never do it again, i was naive and young though.
My anxiety is so severe i basically feel intoxicated all the time anyway!
Sorry didn't mean to post the above. It's when you decide the anxiety will no longer use all your focus and drive; even take over your mind you start the road to management. stop coming on this... It's unhealthy spending all your time obsessing. There's a whole freaking universe out there. Embrace it, love it; be who you want to be. The past is unchangeable, the future is unpredictable. You only have control of the present!
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