What is wrong with me?

[blonddraider]

I don't know what is wrong with me. I keep going into this wierd trance where I feel like I am not here just listening and I can feel myself get all hot and fade away. If I look at someone and overthing what they are going through or thinking I slip into a strange bizzare trance like it is so hard to explain. I keep overthinking but deep and then I feel my heart speed up and my body gets all hot and I feel like I am losing it. This is so hard to explain, I keep trying to look up answers and most of it comes back to Anxiety attack but can I just have one for no real reason except thinking myself into one? I can make myself go into the wierd trance also I can control my dreams and I can feel myself litterally fall asleep and if I am dreaming I can come in and out of it which was scary at first but I have calmed myself when I do that. When I first get up in the morning I sometimes feel like I am not all the way awake and if I take a shower or think about it I feel like I am again in this wierd mind altered thing. I dont feel dizzy but off and I am not sure what to do. I have a lot of drama going on and I keep thinking too much about others situations or my own and then the mind trance wierdness happens. Please anyone!

[blonddraider]

Really, that is what it feels like I will be thinking or say calling bingo with my residents and then between numbers think of something that makes me feel like its just wierd, the wierdest scaryest feeling. I sometimes will think of something I have done in the past while actively doing something like I'm thinking too much as you said and i get the strange detachement feeling with a bit of Dejavu sorta its so hard to explain. Why would this start out of the blue? I have I think dealt with this but not to the extreme where it is now and so I never paid much attention, but now it is so often. My anxiety is worse then ever and I am always in anticipation mode. I do feel like I am just thinking way too much about nonsence or too many things at once how do I stop the constant thinking and bizzare spells? I don't have insurance yet, I will in July and I am making an appointment for my anxiety I need to get it under control I was given medication but was afraid to take it. I still have the prozac but I'm scared never been a good pill popper. Thank  you so much any more advise? Does it really sound like depersonalisation why now? Thank you again I really am scared that I am going crazy.

[Suz245]

its depersonalisation its a normal reaction to anxiety...its your brain shutting down a little to help you not over think...its just a sensation although all sensations with anxiety feel terrifying xxx

[blonddraider]

Thanks I am going to cause I really don't like this and I am sure I am talking myself into it in a way but there is something not right either.
Thanks again.

[LostInLife522]

Look up derealization, I believe it fits into what you're describing.