Yip - anxiety - there is no reasoning logically with it! It is incredible when it grips you, and I read, and look, and some say up to 6 months, then am I then few exceptions, the unlikely one to be exposed by a handjob, then contract it, the present atypically and continuously for 2 months, then have negative tests, and still then think there is this chance I am the exception. So yeah, at the moment, logical reasoning has taken charge again, may it last this time. I just want to empathize with your comment 'I can't help myself', and there lies the pathology. Thanks and good luck to you.
If tests say that you are negative, it is all psychological
I have a similar problem in last 3 months almost, regarding STD. Impossible to stop myself. Even negative test results ease me a while, then it all starts again. I can't offer advice, as I am seeking it myself, see:
http://www.medhelp.org/posts/Herpes/HSV-2-Advice/show/2770917
Can't stop myself, I just have to know
Yes thats correct. Anxiety can play lots of tricks in you. Rethink and everything is makeing you think you actualy done that before and so one...is all part of anxiety. Atm my anciety is worse but i accept it that feel this way is fine. You have to think this way also. And stop googleing symptoms it make it worse