i had a traumatic experience to do with my health and i truly do not know what happened but i was positive i was dying i even told the doctors im dying aint i and wrote notes to all my family while laid in a hospital bed getting told its "anxiety" after suffering health anxiety most my life it got really bad this year after i had a miscarriage i started to think in a more positive way "you only live once live your life you dont know whats around the corner " but this soon changed to "your seriously ill and dr google will let you know what you have " aortic aneurysm is what doctor google told me and sure enough i had all the symptoms i could feel my belly pulsing 24/7 and see it other people could too so this was not in my head sure enough though that was about 4-5 months back now and after having new symtoms developed i was convinced any day i was about to go .
the weeks went by and i started developing a breathing problem now this is the question that non of my doctors have answered and even my cbt worker cant answer i will be sat there and all a sudden it lasts for a second but its like my breath gets sucked right out of me or i will take a big involuntary breath nobody see's me doing these as its complete more of a feeling inside i know its happening but there's no evidence it actually is so 3 months on from when i first happened my panic attacks have dissapeared its like they just don't happen at all i don't get anxious like i used to i get worried but all the old symptoms i used to get to reassure me it was panic and anxiety have gone so now im left here getting told most probably anxiety by doctors but how can they know ?
everyday im waiting for it i tell my children i love them constantly and to remember i love them ect because i don't know if im dying or if this is anxiety
can you have symptoms without a panic attack ?
can you have anxiety breathing problems when not anxious ?
can you believe you are really seriously ill and believe you have not got anxiety when you have ?
i know iv had anxiety all my life but i feel i have accepted it and im better and i truly believe i am dying everyday iv had this breathing problem i believe its my last day .
i dont trust the doctors.
i feel they pass everything thats unexplained to "anxiety"
can anxiety be so bad that you dont believe you have it anymore ?
my cbt worker also believes my anxiety is not that bad and she has seen far worse ect i just cant get my head around why my panic attacks would dissapear and this breathing thing has stayed and comes when it wants
maybe i have fully lost it but please would like honest answers :)