Had a bad couple of days with my ex husband, him blaming me about things, irrational behaviour after I had done a couple of things to relieve him of some stress he was having. He continued from yesterday into today mimicking me, , treating me like ****, yet he's supposed to love me. I took my heart rate this evening I was churning and pulsing, got a headache and it was 171 over 107 with pulse 113. My normal heart rate is119 over 62 pulse 78. I am so scared, why do I allow him to get at me, giving me such pain and heartache. This is dangerous isn't it, I'm 68 years old?