Long story short- I have ptsd, severe anxiety w/ some panic attacks. Went to doc, doc gave me klonopin, which I feel is making me depressed. I cant take ssri's because they DEFINATELY make me depressed- I am normally composed just have physical anxiety symptoms. Well, I have taken xanax but only because a friend who also has panic attacks was prescribed them, and I know that works very well for me, and seems to wear off quicker, where as the klonopin makes me sleepy and feels like it drags me down, the xanax did not make me feel high, it made me feel normal. I almost cried when I think about it because I dont know how to tell my doctor that I think it might work for me.
I guess its hard because as a rape victim you know you need help but all my family and friends act like taking medicine is a cop-out, and the last time i went to the doc, like 5 years ago, he found out the hospital had precribed me klonopin and freaked out, saying I would get addicted to it, and made some comment about drug seeking behavior. I felt so ashamed I didnt go to the doctor for like 5 years. I am so tired of being a guinea pig, and here I find something that works and it is taboo.
How do I talk with my doctor about this, in the school brochure it makes some statement about it being illegal to accept medicine from friends and family, dont want to get in trouble for mentioning I tried it through a friend, who gave it to me in the first place because i was having a panic attack and really needed it. I just want to feel normal.
thanks.