help please before i completely lose it

[erin626]

On top of everything going on in my life (my impending eviction) I'm 3 days late for my period. I took 6 home tests and went to the doc today for a test and all were negative. But I've convinced myself I'm pregnant. I've had anxiety and panic attacks all day since being late. I've barely eaten, I've been nauseated, and having headaches. I get these awful headrushes that start me into full blown panic mode. I'm going crazy over this. I keep second guessing the tests and I'm driving myself crazy. I keep thinking all of the symptoms I'm having are because I'm pregnant and not because of anxiety. I'm constantly short of breath and having a feeling of tightness in my chest. I'm so scared. Everyone is telling me not to worry. But its easy for them to say. What can I do?

I have an appt with my obgyn on tuesday so if it still doesn't come I will be seeing a doctor but I don't know if I can deal with this until then. I've never been so terrified in my life and the anxiety is causing me so much distress. I barely made it through work tonight.

[mauismom]

God, I know that worry... but like everyone says 7 negative tests mean 7 negative tests...those tests are so sensitive nowadays even the cheap dollar store ones..Hyperventilation is my enemy...that is what starts 99.9% of my panic attacks...you really do need to see the big pic and just relax....take care and have a peaceful night...

[erin626]

I'm really hoping its just stress. Still no sign of it today. I'm feeling a bit more calm. I'm trying to just ignore it until tuesday when I see the doc but I'm still very scared. I had a bit of a panic attack at work this morning but I was able to calm myself down. I've been talking to my girlfriends at work who have kids and they keep reassuring me that 7 negative tests is probably a good sign that I'm not pregnant. But this anxiety keeps making me second guess everything. I'm doing my best. I still haven't been able to eat. My nerves are fried.

[nobody_knows]

Think your about to move again so maybe thats why you are late! You really are concerned about the move and its put you on a small delay. Think positive easier said than done but you can do it. Reality and you said it at the beginning of your post besides facing your impending eviction..... Then you said the only other time you were late was when you moved so relax about the posibilities of moving. Hope you feel better soon!

[erin626]

I was on the pill but it made me incredibly sick so I had to stop taking it. I was going to discuss other options with my doc on tuesday assuming I'm not pregnant. I was think the implant maybe. Anything other than the pill. I couldn't stand how sick they made me.

I do have horrible anxiety right before my period but I'm never this late. Except right after I moved to LA. I completely skipped a period but that was 4 years ago.

[DJ873]

well one thing i know from my symptoms that seems to help is to assume you are not until you know different. Just accept you are not. If by some extremely extreme change you are you will deal with it at that time. are you on the pill? i wonder if hormone control would help you with all the trouble you have with your cycles

[erin626]

Thank you. I keep telling myself I'm not but my thoughts are consuming me. Its all I think about. I can't focus on anything. I'm distracted while I drive, while I'm at work. I'm obssesing over websites about early pregnancy signs. I've read stories of women having negative tests for a month only to find out through a blood test. I'm going crazy. I've barely eaten the past few days. I have no desire even when I feel hungry. I'm having trouble sleeping. I'm a complete wreck.

[DJ873]

Hi Erin, ok state what is so, I am not pregnant, I have anxiety disorder, I always feel crappy around my period (read past posts) and my thoughts can't hurt me nor can I think things true. Just because I think I am pregnant does not make it so, that is the thoughts. I am going to allow these thoughts to float around in my head but focus my attention on now and what is so. I know I get headaches, nausea, and tight chest as symptoms of my anxiety but I am a powerful strong, woman and I know this too shall pass, it always does, I didn't die last month when i felt many of these things. If  I can keep my breathing calm by placing my hand on my belly and feel it rise and fall, ground my body on what is real, what do i see hear and smell and wait for this to pass as calm as possible.
Do you have any xanax? a very small dose can even be helpful. I can take 1/4 of 1 and feel much calmer.
You can deal with this, you have dealt with this before,
stay strong my friend,
Donna