help!

[sickyyy]

im freaking out. ive taken my xanax today. i feel hot jittery uneasy slight chest pain shaky disoriented and unable to sleep. i am in the process of losing my mom. im handling it well but i am not sure if im bottling it up and its affecting me without me knowing. i feel short of breath and my head hurts. i wanna give up.

[turkee23]

im so sorry to hear about your mother, i will say a prayer for you and her both. she will be looking upon you even if you dont make the ceremony. she know you love her, and she loves you as well.

we are here when you need to talk....god bless you and your mother

[CanuckGuy42]

So sorry to hear about your mom.... i lost mine to cancer in 2003 and it was hard....so true what the others have said that ceremonies are for the living... the departed have moved on and are in a position, I believe, to be with us no matter where we are....

[lynn57]

We are with you in spirit.  Ceremonies are more for us than the deceased.  Don't beat yourself  up over it.  She feels your love.  So sorry you have to go through this.  Don't try to be too "strong".  You have to let those emotions out.  Don't let them build up.  It's ok to grieve.  

[mammo]

Aww.....so sorry.  Your mother will be in peace and no longer suffering, but I know these words offer little comfort.  If you don't make the ceremony don't be hard on yourself.  These are for the living and your mother will be looking down on you and know how much you love and miss her.  Hold your own little ceremony in memory of her, she will know.
Big hugs and stay with us.

[sickyyy]

they are taking here off life support in less than 6 hours. OMG. be strong myself. be strong. and i dont have the money to go to texas for her ceremony....

[lynn57]

Mammo is so right.  I went through three deaths in my family in the same year.  I remained the "strong" one.  Tried never to break down or show my pain.  After everything was settled down, the panic attacks started.  Don't let things bottle up.  You are still having a panic attack after taking the Xanax.  Talk to your doctor and ask about the possibility of Klonopin.  It's longer acting and helps prevent those negative thoughts and anxiety.  Without the anxiety being so overwhelming, it may be easier to accept the difficulties you encounter during this process.  It's hard to deal with your emotions when your panic attacks are all you can think about.  Hang in there.  I feel so sorry for your mom and those that love her.  You will get through this.  Take care of yourself.  

[mammo]

Oh sweetie, I am so sorry.  You are dealing with so much right now that anything is possible.  Let your doctor know right away how you are feeling, he may want to up your medication or put you on a longer acting one.  I doubt you are handling this as well as you think, it's a very difficult thing to endure.  This is no time to pretend that you're okay.  This is devestating for you especially at such a young age.  You need to let your emotions out and jouranling your feelings and emotions is a great way to do this.  Putting our feelings and emotions on paper is very therapeutic and a form of release for us.  Cry when you feel the need, and be angry if you are.  Don't give up, your mom would not want that for you.  She wants you to live a happy and fulfilling life and she will live on in you.  I lost my mom when I was 25, I truly understand all your emotions right now.  Besides the pain, we have the "whys" and anger that our mom is taken away.  But we have to mourn our loss and work thru our emotions and sometimes we need help with that...and that's okay.  You need to let your emotions flow, everyone will understand and trying to be strong and "handle it well' will just hurt you.  As you go thru life show the world what a wonderful daughter your mother raised.....it's a great tribute to your mom.  Big hugs, and know my thoughts and prayers are with you and your mom.