looking for answers.

[lisol]

i aam out here because i am looking for answers, i bothered some of you already,14 yrs ago 5 of my children past in a fire, then my mother passed with cancer a few months latter then my father passed with cancer, all in the same year. i went through depression for awhile not noing what it was but i did ok. then about 99 i started syptoms of anxiety thinking i was trying to kill my self. when i walked down the street i felt my self trying to walk in front of a car. then in 202 i had what they called an anxiety episode. i had anxiety attakes feared then and put my self into a constant panic mode. paxil and alproalamb, i was fine for at least 3 yres then the anxiety kicked in fear from anxiety put me in to panic again. i had this in 2006 and 07. this year i got stressed again new job son brother dieing going through change of life. while i am going through the same thing like before i notice my feelings change to fear weepyness irrableness anger, while i was in needing to go go all the time to just ok im here.i wake up thinking that i am going crazy well haveing a nerves break down ,that what causes my anxiety in the morning then i am feeling fine happy laughing to at the end of the day i start to get anxiety again thenfeeling on edge.i think this is why i wake up in the mornings the way i do. but because my moods have been changeing from fear to weepyness to anger to happyness i am wondering if i have bipolor . i have been talking to my therypist all see tells me is no i dont have bipolor its just anxiety and depression. i am on 5mgs of lexapro. can any one tell me if this is just my anxiety or did i get bipolor?

[RubyWitch]

How you have stayed sane with all the losses in your life is nothing short of a miracle. I am really humbled by the grief you must live with daily and am so sorry for your pain.
I do not believe you have become bipolar. What I DO believe is that you need to find yourself a new therapist. You don't say how long you've been seeing her, but if all she tells you is "it's JUST anxiety and depression," and puts you on 5mg of Lexapro, sorry, but in my humble opinion, she's a complete quack!
Please get a second opinion and begin getting the type of help you really need.
Peace
Greenlydia