Psh, you think it's that easy?....To do it without getting something I DONT want out of it?
.....I write EVERYTHING down....she pointed that out today....plus....it's round the Holidays! If I told her the truth, she'd send me away! It's my 1st Holidays home in 4 years! I cant leave now! I just want her to know! But I cant tell her....
You go to your therapist and tell him exactly what you said here. They need to hear the real you and you need to let them know what is happening.