please :'(

[fnbm]

Ok I have a panic disorder with agrophobia. Diagnosed 6 years ago an after a year of self help ( no meds ) I got a functioning state in my life... then 3 months ago I had some big changes and had a total downward spiral. Ended up in er and to my doctor. Prescribed anti depressants and anti anxiety meds. I refuse to take them ( scared of addiction an side effects ) so I'm seeing a therepist once a week for a month now. Relearning all the cbt and self help. I can say I am 50% better most the time. But .... sometimes I get downnnnnnn down down. I feel out of control of myself if that makes sense?  I cry and hate myself. It fades but .... its terrible. Then like now I have a numb forehead and arm. Always left arm and it aches.... I'm in car with my husband an kid.

I don't know. Any tips?  Advice?  Anything?  At all?  I try to be positive but deep inside I hate myself because I feel so.... un normal. I look at people around me ab this just live an its a struggle everyday every minute every second to even walk threw a door to smile to shower. Everything is hard an takes so much outta me :'( I hate this.

[Gasten]

Get back to me after you read those books I recommended!  They will be a lifesaver for you--I guarantee!

[Cntbreal]

Hi fnbm I hope it starts to help you. I got your message sorry for the late response. I hope you can start to feel better. I'm here to talk if you need to.

Cntbreal..

[fnbm]

Thanks :) I'm going to give it a try. I messaged u cntbreal :)

[Cntbreal]

I hope you are feeling better today then yesterday. But I have started my trazadone the other night. Ut really did help me sleep but that was it. I still woke up the next morning feel anxious and out of it.. I totally forgot to tell you that writing really do help. Not only the bad and good just all feelings and thoughts of your day and life. Past and present. It helps to get it off your mind and putting it on paper could help you have your quite time as I call it..

And also if there are fears you are trying to get rid of try writing them down on paper five times and as you write it each time write I want to fear you no more the take it out side and burn it. Do this as many times a week til you start to feel better.. The object is to see it read it say it and let it go as it burn. Its helpful. Some get over it and some don't.

Hope you get better hun..

Cntbreal

[fnbm]

Thank u all. Ill head to book store tomorrow :)  anything that'll help :) I am exhausted tonight from anxiety today.... ugh

[Gasten]

Yes,  go to Barnes and Noble and purchase the book "Hope and Help for Your Nerves" by Claire Weekes.  When you are done reading that, purchase and read her book "Simple Treatment of Agoraphobia".  Be sure and read Hope and Help FIRST, so you understand her basic principles.  You will be amazed at how easily you can be freed from your prison.

[waxxyx]

Hi mate
I know where your coming from. My anxiety stems from phobia's, and I sometime feel like Ive put myself in a position where I'm going to catch or am likely to develop some sort of ailment and then BAM.. the anxiety kicks in.
I'm not on meds and I also haven't been to the doctor about it because I believe I can beat this and go back to my old way of thinking, because surely if I used to have rational thoughts I should be able to train my mind to think that way again right? Anyways whether my fears are irrational they seem very real and the 'what ifs'' are always in my head.

At the moment I'm reading a book on anxiety which gives some tips including exercise and relaxation techniques. However I still feel the need to tackle my problems head on but when I do that... guess what... I feel like I've put myself in a situation where I'm likely to develop an ailment because of it. It's a vicious circle!

Talking about it helps me, reading also distracts me, but like yourself mate I want to deal with this myself.

Think about the positives, you actually managed to get yourself to a functioning point in you life before, which means you can do it again. We just need to work on it. Always talk about it if you can, even on medhelp. We're all here to support each other :)

[fnbm]

I kno sag, I wish I could see her everyday of my life lol....

[fnbm]

Mine had me see a psychyrist also. He gave me lexapro. Its still in the bag in my medicine cabinet. I'm TERRIFIED of it. I can't take it, not yet.... I need to try longet to help mysel.... I do not want to take the medicine. R u going too?

[Sagitarius88]

Yes that's wot I wish to see my therapist every day

[fnbm]

Thank you for responding. I had another down moment last night. So I grabbed a pen an paper an wrote down all my negative thoughts an then I wrote dpwn positive things about me n my life. It helped I suppose. It ended the weepiness.... I wish I could see my therepist everyday lol.... :'(

[Cntbreal]

Hello hun.

First let me say. I know how you feel its hard dealing with life itself. Let alone having anxiety and other things that come with it. I know its hard hun but you must try first to understand you didn't chose this. You are worth living a great life and hateing yourself its not the key. You must learn to love yourself and see that you are a great person. Don't be so hard on yourself. I know its easier said then done. But with practice it can and still get better.. We have this anxiety and its getting us down but we must keep fighting it and making sure we know our self worth.

Life is so much more then this anxiety. Do you feel like your therapist helps you? I go to see a therapist but they are saying I need a physiatrist because my problem is bigger then them. Their like a bandage on a bullet wound. So now in trying to find a physiatrist.

You can try to find ways to get your happy back and know you sts a great person and life with anxiety can be more then what we see and fill..

Hope you get better hun. I'm here if you need to talk..