Hi
Regarding the feelings of not beloning - a lot of people feel like that. In itself, it is not a disorder. But the I'm here/I'm not here and not caring about what goes on around you seems to indicate "numbing out", rather large step towards depression. You said you have no emotions but I'm sure you do but just can't deal with them right now so the numbing out makes sense. But suppressing your emotions often leads to depression and other disorders.
I agree with others' comments. Try to find a shrink you feel safe with or even go to the ER if you have to. These feelings or lack of feelings can escalate. Some folks even
cut themselves just to see if they really can feel. But don't do that!!!!
In this forum you can get support and advice. I have seen responses to posts like yours that provide a website that might be able to help you find a reputable shrink. If I find it, I'll let you know.
I know exactly how you feel. You are depressed, plain and simple. beffqwerty is right when you start feeling very disconnected you should seek help. Stay on this forum and read the other posts, you will see much to relate too.
What you are feeling is COMMON especially in this day and age and most likely all days and ages. You are NOT alone. Life IS worth it, and once you get the help, therapy or medication (be careful do your research) you will feel like yourself again. I fought this for about 35yrs, and if you look at my posts you will see my journey.
When you stop watching your favorite football team, or just start to think the Whats it all about thing....get some answers.
STAY ON THIS FORUM, And go see a psychiatrist. If you live in a bigger city or near one look up the patient feedback online or other resources. They will have a long waiting list but tell them you want in on a semi emergency basis get that cancel list appointment. If money is a problem go to the ER if it gets too bad.
Whatever you do TAKE ACTION. This forum is a start and you can just keep reaching out here if that works, but you will see what others have done and it is more than just this. If it were not for this forum I would have never gotten to the other stuff. I am sure glad I did.
kcdem
Hun, get yourself to a doctor, when you start feeling unattached it can be a bad thing. Do you have a therapist or anything like that who you talk to?
Lots of people (including myself) have this feeling A LOT. The best thing to do is go to your doc and ask for help. They will not judge you or anything like that, they are there to help and so many people have these issues that they are used to it :)
Also, get a close group of friends if you can and spend time with them, try and relax a little, don't worry about not belonging because you will do and you will feel it in time
Hope this helps :)
*Hugs*