i tapered off going from 30 mg for 20 years to 15 for a couple years to every other day at 15 for a couple months, then i went to see my 'addiction' doctor who said there was no need for me to continue the slow gradual slide, but that i should "just quit. stop." so, even though i was experiencing an increase in emotionality and sweating, especially when i "feel" something strongly. i did it. now it's been a full week off and i am having intense dreams, mostly full of anxiety, fear, anger. i notice i begin to feel up and down a bit. also the most annoying part is the 'surges' of heat when i feel i am upset or irritated by something. it's like menopause hot flashes but i've been past that for years. oh well...i'm going with the answer being - all things good are hard and i'm sticking with this. i do notice i am 'feeling' again. something like a veil being taken off...or a layer of skin peeled. i feel more awake and more aware. but i wasn't aware of losing it. onward and upward.