And I am sorry I posted twice on the same community! I hadn't noticed that...
Thank you very much once again! I have been a little bit aware of the signs since my psychologist gave me some reading material. Sometimes I can totally relate to it, but sometimes I just think it's just not possible. I just think that maybe I am creating all of it but at the same time my life has been so messed up in soooooooo many ways. I really need to know what's wrong and this feeling is just making me sick! But thank you very much anyway. I'll try to get an appointment as soon as possible!
I would be perfectly willing to believe the diagnosis based on what you've put here. Bipolar disorder is highly varied, and doesn't have to come in neat cycles--you can have several down turns in a row without an upturn, or vice versa, or you can have mixed states, where you fit the criteria for depression and mania at the same time (e.g. not sleeping, super energetic, really irritable, suicidal, impulsive spending, feelings of worthlessness all at once). Many times, bipolar II is misdiagnosed as major depression because depressive episodes are often more common than hypomanic episodes, and people tend not to seek help during hypomania because they don't see it as a problem.
I highly recommend taking a look around psycheducation.org. It talks a lot about the nuances of bipolar, including how some people don't get well delineated cycles. There's a whole lot more nuance to the diagnosis than the general public knows.
Well! I'll check on the website for sure! Thanks a lot for your reply. I guess I should look for a doctor... It's just so hard to take it... I feel like it's getting worse! Thank you very much!!!
I would be perfectly willing to believe the diagnosis based on what you've put here. Bipolar disorder is highly varied, and doesn't have to come in neat cycles--you can have several down turns in a row without an upturn, or vice versa, or you can have mixed states, where you fit the criteria for depression and mania at the same time (e.g. not sleeping, super energetic, really irritable, suicidal, impulsive spending, feelings of worthlessness all at once). Many times, bipolar II is misdiagnosed as major depression because depressive episodes are often more common than hypomanic episodes, and people tend not to seek help during hypomania because they don't see it as a problem.
I highly recommend taking a look around psycheducation.org. It talks a lot about the nuances of bipolar, including how some people don't get well delineated cycles. There's a whole lot more nuance to the diagnosis than the general public knows.