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[stormbear]

I was just wondering if this happens to anyone else ? sometimes i drift off into my own world for several minutes and don't realise what's being said or what's going on around me , but the thing is i feel numb like total blackness and i have no thoughts at all , my mind is blank , but the numb feeling can last for days then BAM , my thoughts are racing million miles an hour ,high anxiety kicks in, extreme irritability ,frustration and anger come into the equation also , i just want this all to stop if it's not one thing it's another i can feel reasonably fine for a day or maybe a week than the crazy kicks in ,disturbing thoughts paranoia , depression suicidal ideation ...etc, it's a curse never seems to be much consistantcy in moods , thoughts or feelings .

[schizofriendia]

Yes it would be essential to see a psychiatrist about it at this point.  Good on you.

[stormbear]

Hi , yes i'm on meds and  i'm seeing a pychiatrist in two days time to see if i can change my meds mainly because of the symptoms i've been having lately (mentioned above ) , what i find a little unclear  though is i was diagnosed bi polar 2 with social anxiety (Phobia ) a few years ago but  my moods and thoughts are so all over the place and not consitant atm , i think it could be mixed state with ultra rapid cycling , than i might have a day when i'm ok but i've mainly been a little depressed paranoid and anxious the last couple of days it ***** .

[Twofthr]

You sound like your having quite a few of the classic symptoms for a Bipolar 1. Are you on any kinds of mood stabizers, if not you should be seeing a Dr as soon as you can. If you are then the Meds aren't helping you and they need to be checked by your Dr. Be patient it takes time to get the right Meds for our type of bipolar. You also need to eat properly, get at least 8 hrs sleep a night and exercise. This was all taught to me when I went to a Dual Recovery program it got me clean from drugs and taught me how to look after my disorder. It doesn't always go great but you can learn to cope. Good luck