Life Changing Episode

[Bluetwo]

I had a horrible time last year in early spring and early summer with bipolarism. It remind me of my episodes I had thirty years ago. I was diagnosed in 1992 and with medication I been pretty much stable. Feeling secure of my emotional state I became confident and started to miss my doses or didn't take my meds on a regular basis.  I went manic during spring break and ventured into psychosis depression. I didn't feel comfortable with my own skin type of experience but I did get treatment and counseling.  I had to change medications three times before the doctor found the right combination. It was a doosie of an episode.

It was life changing. I look at the eposide like in terms of B.C. and A.D. Before Episode and After Episode.

Life Changing....finding new relationships, re-evaluating past relationships and dumping old relationships.

Dumping old relationships because I was not in the best mental state. I said too much about myself and I don't feel comfortable with the person anymore. You grow and move on. I feel a little guilt dumping the person but I felt she was gossiping about me. Why I think she was gossiping? Constant asking me how I was doing and trying to figure out what was wrong with me. She wanted to know every detail of my life. I just didn't feel comfortable with that.

[Bluetwo]

I think she was overly concerned. She kept telling one lady that I was having problems with my mother in ill health. The lady always mentioned the gossiper all the time like we were big buddies. My mother is getting old and I expect certain illnesses will affect her but I felt it was over done by the gossiper. And I felt it was overly done. I don't like people putting their own spin on things to suit their needs. Some people do live through other people. I just became aggitated by the comments and didn't help me during my depression psychosis. It made things worst for me where I had to seek counseling. I was afraid of saying something regretful during my psychosis.

[paranoid_cataclysm]

I might be wrong but perhaps she was concerned about you?  I don't know for sure though because I don't know how she went about it.  Only thing you could really do to know for sure is ask around but even then people might lie so it's hard to tell.  I also look at my life sort of like the way you do because I'm not able to do things like I used to be able to ever since I had a full psychotic break.