Pregnant, Bipolar, and Suicidal

I am 12 weeks pregnant and I have been off my meds since august. I am currently alone with no phone, no car, at the apartment and I am very suicidal. I get this way a lot lately especially with the current life drama going on. I feel like the only reason I have killed myself is because of the baby. I tried to OD a couple of weeks ago but I didn't completely go through with I started but stopped. Now I am honestly scared that I may cut my wrist or something just to stop this heartache that I can't shake. I feel Like a wast on the earth right now. I don't know what to do. I just recently got Medicaid but I don't know if it covers mental health and if I can even take anything without affecting the baby, but this is probably hurtling the baby to. I hate myself right now and I don't know what to do I don't...I just want to give up and end this miserable thing called a life and end this problem I've had for a month and this drama but I love my baby --even unborn but I feel so awful right now....

[ILADVOCATE]

Medicaid covers psychiatric treatment. As for what medication could be safely taken during pregnancy speak to your psychiatrist and OB GYN about that and have them discuss it together.

[Collegebeauty22]

I don't have a psychiatrist....I don't have regular insurance

[ILADVOCATE]

Medicaid will cover a psychiatrist. You could go to a walk in clinic if you need help now.

[miraculous]

Hi there

I am in a similar situation to you right now, about 6 weeks pregnant and bipolar. Had to stop my meds as they can seriously affect babyso I am having the worst time of my life. I just can't bear another day everyday is a struggle of endurance as you say but I also have 2 young children to look after so I somehow just exist from one day to another I have people and friends that care but they can't help me no one can seem to help me as it is a very lonely place to be.Sorry I can't help you but just know I can almost guarantee I know just how bad you are feeling.and you are not alone. keep us posted

[bernie40]

There are meds that are safe to take during pregnancy.  It's all about weighing up the risks, if coming off meds is a risk to your health then ultimately it is a risk to the baby.  Seroquel is a med commonly used during pregnancy amongst others - your psychiatrist will be able to discuss this with you.  No psych is going to guarantee 100% that meds won't harm your baby but the risks are very low.  For instance with lithium the risks are only increased by 0.05%.

[peggy64]

have you had your thyroid checked? I ask this because thyroid disease can seem like mental problems and goes undiagnosed for to long.

Call your dr...

I am so sorry you are feeling this way. Get on the computer and look up pictures of fetus's and just imagine your baby, and how it will feel when you get to hold him or her.  This will bring you lots of joy.

Force yourself to keep your mind on positive things. Don't watch ANY depressive or violent tv shows or listen to any music that is that way.

Hang in there. You are strong, and the most important thing of all....Pray Pray Pray. I will be praying for you as well.

Keep us posted.