Relationship with someone bipolar and an alcoholic

[jamiecase]

Hello,

I've been seeing someone that I believe has bipolar (from everything I read about it) for few months.  He's never told me he has the disorder and I don't believe he's on any meds. He is also an alcoholic (something he admits).  It's been an extremely tolling experience.  Lots of ups, but also lots of downs.  I've seen him blow up, loose his temper on numerous occasions, normally this happens while he's under the influence.  This makes me very nervous and I tend to shut down because I don't want to put him over the edge and get violent. In our relationship, he never takes the blame for anything, everything is always my fault, he twist my words and actions, and even if I show him the evidence, he will keep accusing me of things I didn't say/do. When we have an argument, he will give me the silent treatment and will not respond to my calls, sometimes this will last for days, then later when confronted will say he was fine and deny purposefully giving me the silent treatment.  He will blow up for no reason and will make a huge issue of something really minor, which will escalate into a break-up, which is what happened again. Another thing that I find strange is that one minute he'll say he loves me, then he takes that back and says he just likes me, and says he's not sure he wants to be with me.

I realize this is a board for bipolar disorder and not for someone who's bipolar and an alcoholic, but I'm hoping I can get some insight from anyone that's dealt with someone who struggles with both and not seeking help. It breaks my heart, because I love him, and want to help him, but I'm not sure how, and even if I'm capable of doing so.

Thanks.

[jamiecase]

I've never been with someone who's an alcoholic and at first I just thought he enjoyed drinking, but as time went on, he stopped hiding just how much he drinks and blatantly admitted to being an alcoholic. His behavior was really strange and left me confused a lot of times, so I guess I was just trying to understand.

[LIZZIE LOU]

his actions seem like a typical alcoholic

[jamiecase]

Thanks lindahand. I've made an appointment to see a counselor, to heal and to cope and maybe get some answers. I used to think that you can love someone enough to wholeness, but that's not true, he needs to seek the help, and unfortunately he's not doing so at this time, so all I can do is move on.

[jamiecase]

Thank you lindahand. I have called and set up an appointment to get some counseling.  This has affected me quite a bit, something I didn't even realize until my friends pointed it out. I keep reminding myself that he is a grown man, and he has choices. I've tried to help him because I do love him, but you can only help those that want the help, and he doesn't, at least at this time.

Thank you again.

[jamiecase]

Thanks Hummingbird24.  Yes, I've been realizing more and more that there isn't anything I can do to help, I used to try my hardest, but it has to come from him.  Fortunately we do not have any children, so I guess I can make a clean break, even though it is painful.

[lindahand]

You may want to get some counselling and figure out what is attracting you to dsyfunctional relationships. He is functionally unavailable to you, and will be until HE decides it is bad enough to get help. The best thing you can do for him is to tell him he gets help, or you leave, and mean it. If he doesn't get help you walk.

Because what you are describing isn't romantic love, its a dsyfunctional neediness. I'm not judging, I've done it myself. That is why this email has more red flags than I can count.

Real love, the kind worth having, means you give and you take. That you have someone you know for sure will be there when the chips are down, and celebrate with you for the good moments. If you are the only one making the effort, it isn't real love and you are worth more than that. He's not a wounded puppy you can nurse back to health, he's a grown man makings some very bad mistakes he's not willing to address.

I strongly suggest cutting your losses and moving on.