I was wondering if there's anyone out there who's been depressed for 3 years like me with medicine that doesn't seem to work.

[braccio]

I am able to function, but just barely.  I do better when I have something  to do and not so much time on my hands.  The depression makes me very restless, trying to avoid how I really feel.  I try my hardest to put on a good face for everyone, but I feel a lot of inner turmoil, like this depression is never going to end.  Now my psychiatrist is leaving his practice and I have to start over with someone else.  Hopefully, she will be able to do something for me.  I'm just giving up hope on ever getting back to normal.  Anyone felt this way before?

[braccio]

Thanks for the posting!!

[bbgirl011]

I've had many days when I felt like the world was going to end. I've had days when I felt like I was never going to find any medications to help make me feel better/alive again.

Sadly in my low moods - that thought scares me all the time. That I'm never going to find the "right" chemical balance that is going to be perfect for me. That one balance that is going to be just mine to make me "perfect" or "livable" to be around.

However, you just have to keep telling yourself when your not in those low moods that you will find the right medications for yourself in time. It will not come right away. It will take alot of experimenting to find out what medications are good for you and which ones aren't.

The question question now becomes which medications are perfect for your "chemical reaction". So never give up hope as you cross another medication off the list. It will be a long, slow, painful process - I can't lie there - but you will find it eventually.

I'm still trying to find my perfect chemical reaction. I haven't found mine yet.

[braccio]

What kind of medicine have you been on?  I have a family that keeps me going; I don't know what I'd do if I lived alone.  I hope I'll get back to normal, whatever normal is now.  I'm currently on Depakote, Lamictal, Geodon and Cymbalta.  I would say that's quite the cocktail to take without anything working right, wouldn't you say?

[vptrace]

I have been on depression medication since 1997. It used to work like a charm but anymore.....it's all down hill. They keep on adding different meds to help but they do nothing too. The only thing that keeps me going is that I have a four year old that constantly needs my attention. That is hard for me to deal with as well because how can i take care of her if i cant even take care of myself? I am extremley restless and anxious all of the time. Even when i am busy I dont feel like doing what i am doing but when im not busy it's like i want to jump off a bridge. so you are not alone here. i dont know if i will ever be normal in this life time.

[Xila31]

Well, I've pretty much felt my whole life that I am always going to struggle and no one is ever going to help me. :(

Now my big fear is that I'm going to get worse and worse and I'm trapped inside my own head, and that no matter how bad I get, no one will notice or care. It makes it extra hard to ask for help.

I was only diagnosed bipolar, but I've at least had depression and other troubles since I was a child. The more I work on my past the more I realize how long I have been ill and no one took action. The only thing it has done for me is give me a small sense of relief that I did not fail at life, I was just ill, and if I had not been ill then things would have been different. But at least now I know it wasn't my fault.

I kow that's not exactly what you mean, but that's my own personal life lesson.