I would agree w/ educating yourself AND seeing a psychiatrist, tell him/her all of your symptoms that you have been feeling and let them decide. Some people may tell you that you are just frustrated, well you know what...I'm extremely frustrated and overly exausted, but I am also bipolar. Bipolar comes in many different forms, and only a psychiatrist can diagnose that or depression or any other ailment.
AM I BIPOLAR
this is the no 1 question asked by all bipolars showing traits of bipolarity and not knowing whether they are truly clinically bipolar or not. It is also asked by true bipolars who are in denial of their illness.
In your case i hold a different view. You are newly married got a bunch of kids and your husband has his hands in cold water so you are mad at him and mad at your kids because you hold the responsibility within your hands.
my view is to see for counseling first before a pdoc. I wish to remind you that pdocs write scripts. Probably in your case i assume he will advise a tranquiliser to start with, it's only a guess. So although you will have cold nerves but you may be sleepy too inattentive and the kids are very demanding. So loving your husband and the kids is not contradicting with the responsibility which apparently you bear alone. People before getting married think that marriage is a kind of nice promenade, of course not, once you get children some women forget even about their husbands from the suffering they feel from responsibility. it's sometimes suffocating to look after a bunch of children unless both the husband and wife try their best together. Don't you see the birds nesting, the female prepares the nest while the male go to bring food. companionship is mainly a responsibility.
BP is different, do you feel depressed for a week in bed, wanting to kill yourself at times, did you have mania. You know what mania is?. get educated with BP. it isn't just being moody. "normal" people are moody.
speak with your husband and be firm that you can't take it alone, you need his advise and be both transparent to each other
Again if you feel it's really serious, you became too much paranoid about everything, then consider going to a pdoc. Try counseling first or psychotherapy
good luck
Seeing a psychiatrist is really important, only there will you get a diagnosis. It not the best idea to guess at what you have, but do get an appt.
hi there:)
i was just like that long before i was diagnosed as bipolar 2,however i did not have any children at that time.........you may be just over exhausted,,,,remember taking care of 5 and 11/2 years old BOYS are not an easy job at all...........also you have to take into consideration that a lot of women are diagnosed as bipolar after a child birth,,,,,,,,,,,,,,am no expert at all,,,,,,,,,,,you MUST go to a doctor ,,,,,and even if you turned to be bipolar it is much better to start medication to avoid developing mania,,,,,,,,,,i hope you be ok and if you are bipolar starting now will save you a lot of suffering,,,,,,,i was not diagnosed till i developed sever mania and i took a year to be myself again.
Bipolar can cause episodes of angry and a low frustration tolerance but only a psychiatrist can provide a diagnosis but it would be worth speaking to one.