On Tuesday, for the first time ever I actually felt calm when thinking about dying.. Strange..
Used to get really anxious.
Country music has the same effect on me as the scary movies on you!
Hi i have these thoughts awell i get in a panic thinking what will happen if my partner dies,or if i go to bed and cant wake up again when i have a sore head i cant go to sleep because i think i wont wake up again.
I've found myself that the music of Silent Hill that was written by Akira Yamaoka is actually so well written it can trigger psychosis in me.
Actually although I have always enjoyed horror movies some that are pointlessly hateful are ones that I can't watch as they just seem too real. I am not sure if that is psychiatric as many people feel that way. One thing I do know is one horror movie I saw a while back that affected me (and my mom too although she did not know she had a psychiatric disability then) was an old horror film (not in any way gory or offensive) "Carnival of Souls" that was influential on "Night of the Living Dead" without any of those explicit aspects and that was because of the main character walking through society and feeling as if they "didn't exist". I didn't know I had schizoaffective then but I later could see some films triggered psychosis (so at times if I felt that way I would avoid them) and what I later could see is dissociation that I still experience today (although the causes may be other psychiatric). One thing I would say regardless of what movie you watch if you find it triggers symptoms its probably worth watching another time unless what it brings out are feelings that are worth discussing with your therapist. The fear of death and for me abandonment are very real and are worth coming to terms with in whatever way is appropriate. There are more positive films that approach the concepts though.
yes i've had this happen. I have BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder, mood disorder, in the same family as bipolar) and have attemped suicide a few times and have been hospitalised for it.
if i watch a movie with someone who attempts or succeeds suicide i get a lump in my throat and then it's like my emotions go back to those times that i attempted and get depressed all over again... :(
I don't know if this helps or not, but you're not the only one, you are not alone! good luck, stay strong!
I too get high anxiety over death thoughts and I have morbid thoughts quite often. Once I couldn't sleep for two weeks because I read an article by this scientist claiming the whole earth was going to flip over on it's poles and it could cause massive death and an ice age and all this crazy stuff.
I don't like films about people who are sick and dying. It is too painful for me to watch and it makes me cry about my mom and other trauma in my past. For example, that recent film My Sister's Keeper. I will never ever see that film. Never. It will make me go depressed. I don't mind scary movies or regular drama types, but I prefer to watch comedy.
What stood out to me in your post is I sometimes have anxiety related to thoughts about death and times. In the past I've also had some films that played with my mind kind of the way you described.