It's good that you're aware of the possibility of diagnosing yourself, especially when you are in med school. When I went through med school and the advanced patho classes, myself and many of my classmates thought we had everything we talked about,,,same in our psych rotations.
That doesn't mean that you can't recognize the true symptoms of what you have.
It's good to get two or three opinions and not tell them what the other doc said.
This is exactly what I went through although not when I was in medical school. After two psychiatrists and two psychologists said the same thing (BP I ) I started listening but I still question my diagnosis. I think everyone does.
Hi there,
yip sounds pretty much like my experience I am 48 and I have only recently been diagnosed. My CV reads like a collection of short stories! Either having been sacked or just plain walking into the sunset. I spent lots of time in relationships I should never have been in, and lived an alcohol and weed dazed existence. Blew lots of cash inappropriately...oh and I had a wee go at the shoplifting. I always knew there was something wrong with me but I tried to mend it with self help books gym frenzies and latterly CBT . I was quite happy to see a psychologist but I was not comfortable about going to see a psychiatrist however I'm really glad I did because for the first time in my adult life I feel hopeful that I will be able to settle into a happy consistent way of life. Please don't wait until your my age before getting the advice you need. I got through university easily enough but once you hit the work place you have to be a team player and if you are brilliant performer and highly sociable one week and withdrawn the next it doesn't make for good relationships with your colleagues , or your employer , this is the area in my life where I was most vulnerable. Friends and family love you the way you are , to them its just you being you , but in the work place its not quite so forgiving , and this is why I would advise you to seek advice because its such a massive part of your life. If it turns out that you get a clinical diagnosis between you and the doc you'll get the appropriate meds that suit you which means you can look forward to a full life instead of having two crazy ones or half of one. My GP on realising my reluctance to take meds put it quite simply , " you either take the meds or continue to self medicate on alcohol in which case you have two big issues to contend with " wise words if you ask me ?
Hi there,
yip sounds pretty much like my experience I am 48 and I have only recently been diagnosed. My CV reads like a collection of short stories! Either having been sacked or just plain walking into the sunset. I spent lots of time in relationships I should never have been in, and lived an alcohol and weed dazed existence. Blew lots of cash inappropriately...oh and I had a wee go at the shoplifting. I always knew there was something wrong with me but I tried to mend it with self help books gym frenzies and latterly CBT . I was quite happy to see a psychologist but I was not comfortable about going to see a psychiatrist however I'm really glad I did because for the first time in my adult life I feel hopeful that I will be able to settle into a happy consistent way of life. Please don't wait until your my age before getting the advice you need. I got through university easily enough but once you hit the work place you have to be a team player and if you are brilliant performer and highly sociable one week and withdrawn the next it doesn't make for good relationships with your colleagues , or your employer , this is the area in my life where I was most vulnerable. Friends and family love you the way you are , to them its just you being you , but in the work place its not quite so forgiving , and this is why I would advise you to seek advice because its such a massive part of your life. If it turns out that you get a clinical diagnosis between you and the doc you'll get the appropriate meds that suit you which means you can look forward to a full life instead of having two crazy ones or half of one. My GP on realising my reluctance to take meds put it quite simply , " you either take the meds or continue to self medicate on alcohol in which case you have two big issues to contend with " wise words if you ask me ?
I think you know the answer hon. You are a smart woman and it almost seemed as if you were writing an H&P on a patient. I am now coming to grips that I have the recent diagnosis of cyclothymia. I am a medical professional and it is hard for us especially b/c we are the ones taking care of the patients, not visa versa. I self medicate,, have had reckless behavior with fights while driving etc. Go talk to a doctor. Humble yourself and get the care you need. I am missing the hypomanic part of this diagnosis more than you can imagine as I have been fatigued, sleep more, but my appetite has not increased. Everyone is different. You have to weigh the benefits in this war with our brains. It is not our fault. We did not ask to be this way. I have thrown away so many people over the last 15 years that it makes me sick to even think about it. I am now reconnecting with old friends and want my life back. My old friends are elated that I am back in their life too. Do the right thing as seek professional help. Afterall,,, medical training aside we are all human. Keep posting and pm me if you need to talk or have any questions. My diagnosis just came in the last 2 months so I am coming to grips with this myself. Best of luck hon.
ProdigalGirl
It does sound like bipolar from what you describe but only a psychiatrist could make a diagnosis and determine what kind. We have some good websites linked up such as "Depression Central" (for all mood disorders). The best thing to do is speak to a psychiatrist and describe what's wrong and see how they can help you.
oh also have no family history of bipolar but both parents have had moderate depression and younger sister had severe unipolar depression (attempted suicide), also my grandad tried to commit suicide when he was younger but thats all i know, oh and i engage in pretty reckless behaviours all the time.....excessive spending (am £25,000 in debt from it), excessive alcohol, drug taking- abuse prescription drugs, otc drugs and of course illegal drugs (not always all at the same time....haha!!)