it isn't being brave, i had to

[adel_ezz]

Two days ago i confessed at work that i am bipolar.

It isn't being brave but because i had a mixed state at work and people were scared. so i had to tell them the day after especially that a colleague hurried to report my behavior to my boss. In fact i couldn't hide that i have something weird. Here people are not cultured in these type of illness. Anybody psychologically disturbed is considered crazy as simple as that.

Today my boss gathered my colleagues and told them that i missed a dose and that I am medicated so they shouldn't fear anything. They seemed to be kind and all of them spoke of themselves as having one or two defects.

My father is sad because everybody at work will know not knowing the repercussions thereafter. Eventually all my relatives will also know because it's a small society and everybody like peparazzi like to report defects of everybody else. There is this quotation of Rosevelt wife: "Great minds discuss ideas. Average minds discuss events. Small minds discuss people" but you can't help it especially that it was a scandal that day.

The problem is that it was a secret my family kept and hid for 7 years. Now it will be known to everybody else even my relatives, my neighbours, egyptians like rumors. My father didn't object to tell them anything but not bipolarity because it says in the web "severe mental illness" which is dangerous. Of course they will be puzzled and that the good news. Since they think i must be crazy by definition, they will get perplexed why i think logically always. To them a mentally ill person is someone he thinks sometimes he is Napoleon or a chicken etc... so it's a blessing that i live in egypt; for i don't suppose they will try to label me BP1 or 2 or cyclothemia.

I bet there was no need to confess it especially that i came across this question of whether to tell it or not and it was me especially who kept insisting to the patients never to say it at work. I don't hate myself for it neither do i consider myself brave it's only that i couldn't hide it anymore from the mixed states i manifested in front of them

In anycase, it's finished, and we'll see the consequences pretty soon
ezz.

[opus88]

I enjoyed the quote...all scandals are soon replaced when a new one comes along.

I do think you were very brave to unveil yourself, I hope this will open a greater awareness not of weakness but of being a human being and will bring about the chance for others to accept you with more understanding.

the contradictions of mixed state are perplexing in any society.

I hope your mind can rest easier now that you no longer have to the need to hide or be misunderstood...

for your sake I hope the repercussions will be lighter than what you imagine

[ILADVOCATE]

I'd say you did the right thing. I just might not have provided them with details. I don't know what the laws are concerning disability rights in the workplace are where you live but I'd strongly suggest you look that up.