reluctant to take new seroquel xr

[6060842]

hi,
my pdoc is trying to help me with a complicated mood situation that's *real* stubborn.  he wants me to take some seroquel xr and i agreed because i am trying to please everyone, inc. me.  when your anxiety and depression are too high-octane for ADs and benzos, as you may know, sometimes they add seroquel XR to help, esp. if extreme anxiety and depression are dis-integrating your thoughts a bit as well.  happens to the best of us!  if you have extreme anxiety you'll only misuse and become addicted to benzos, i agree with that and i don't want that to happen.  so here i am trying to cooperate.  
i explained the trouble i have had with neuroleptics old and new to my new resident shrink and while he listened politely i don't know what he got out of it.  when i was hospitalized in the psych ward of a manhattan hospital right around the time of the iraqi war, i was so nervous to begin with that a dose of seroquel made me so thickheaded and doped-up feeling that i felt like i was being drugged involuntarily, did not feel like i was in control of my own life, and i got even more panicky, causing the staff to call the attending in the middle of the night who had to prescribe me 2 mg Ativan -- and isn't this what no one wanted in the first place, dehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
if you're not in a super anxious mood, for instance, if you are not getting provoked or intimidated by rock throwing colleagues in a rooming house or stuff like that, it's not a big deal to take 50 or 100 mg seroquel xr at bedtime, get a decent sleep, and hope you derive something positive out of it the next day.  but if you are so worried about a repeat episode of what happened in the manh.hospital that you don't want to take your seroquel xr because of the horrable horrable fear of getting even more anxious, can someone tell me what the right thing to do is so everyone feels secure?  if i go to me new pdoc and tell him i was "too nervous" to take the seroquel xr at night because of all the partying going on where i am living and how they like to bang on my door when i am snoring to wake me up startled, for instance, is he going to empathize and lay off the atypicals or is he going to tell me i am being manipulative and trying to micromanage the prescribing of the other drugs i already know help me, such as parnate and xanax?
i.e., i cant cooperate, be a compliant patient, and carry out what i think is a sensible and intelligent treatment plan by taking my seroquel xr if i am going to get harassed by the roommates on dope - and at the same time no one feels like i am WORTH them policing these people enough so they won't bother me while i still have to live here and put up with the h*rsesh*t - SOMETHING's got to give, how can i get this message across?
Thanks,

6060842

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[booglebabe]

I was taking seroquel 300mg a nite, yes it will definately help u sleep.
I found it hard to get up and going first thing in the morning.  I had to take it 2hrs before bed.  The sedative effect will go away after a while of taking them.
THey did help with my moods.

[ILADVOCATE]

  Well it makes sense to follow up as regards his concerns but if you had specific side effects from a particular medication there is no reason he shouldn't be willing to discuss them with you. Also it would be worthwhile to inform yourself more about any of the medications you take or might be taking. This lists some websites that can be helpful for informational purposes:
http://www.medhelp.org/health_pages/Mental-Health/Useful-Bipolar--Depression-Webisites/show/523?cid=105
   He should be willing to discuss your concerns about the experience at the hospital where you were and any concerns where you are living now (if you are experiencing any situation as regards abuse or neglect where you live now contact the Commission on Quality of Care and explain the situation to them and they will follow up, you can look up their website). As well there is a specific side effect profile for each medication and if you are concerned about the side effect profile for Seroquel you could ask him about other available options.