I'm not shure but I think it sounds like your medication is amplifing your syptoms! epilim is a siezure medication allthuogh it can be used for bipolar...I was on a med for siezures I dont remember witch one? but it maid me really angry and then all of a sudden I felt like I was in a movie and evrything was fake! and I thuoght thees two girls were talking bad about me makeing fun of me and planning something bad they were going to do to me? I later found out they were talking about how hot I was and dareing eachother to ask me out lol! then I got happy but the happyness didnt stop growing intell I was so happy it drove me mad I was so happy I wanted to peel my skin off... I can luagh about it now but wow that was a screwd up week witch was how long I took that stuff. go see your doctor imediatly stay on your meds you dont know for shure if that is what it is? but my doctor was shocked when he heard what meds my old doctor was giving to me he only prescribes meds specifically maid for bipolar. I have bhen on many meds not for bipolar that may help it. basically experments they all jacked me up eather mania dellusions anger I hate all of them! If I were you I wuold go to a hospital as a inpatient were your safe to make a transission to a real bipolar med if thats what is needed? it's ok I have done it about 6 times? nothing to be ashamed of, but if you are feeling like you might do something dangeruos it's a good Idea I'v had meds make me so zoned out I'v walked out into traffic luckly a friend snatched me up! be carefull and get to your doctor
Sorry I didnt even give you any suggestions, all I can say is you should talk to your doc as the medication is not controlling the mania, remember the highs are most always followed by lows so you need to get stable before you swing even higher and lose touch with reality or well you know how the depressed state feels like, contact your doctor you meds may need adjusting or changing. I know its tempting to deny the need to do something when the feeling of depression has gone but I just keep reminding myself of the really bad experience I had a xmas and the fact that I dont want to go back.
I can sort of relate to this when I was hypomanic/manic from antidepressents I didnt have a care in the world, I wasnt worried about anyone not even my high maintenance daughter who I had been consumed with worry about. I didnt think I was God or anything but I did have my own agenda and didnt consider anyone around me. I was irritated by certain people and long term friends I suddenly hated for no good reason, I did think several times what the **** stop waisting my time I dont want to talk to you but then everything went down the pot hole and things went to a complete pot and became very scarey I was told I was transitioning from hypomania to mania blah blah blah, 3 months later and just starting to feel more stable or hypomanic still not sure as I still cant remember what my normal is, before I went on the antidepressents before my diagnosis I was mixed cycling for two years and didnt know it.