Hi, I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety many years ago and have been on anti depressants ever since. I have had two kids in the past two years and have found it very difficult to cope. At present i feel i am experiencing some kind of breakdown. My emotions are too strong to handle, always negitive and irrational to the point where i feel i cant function and took a small overdose of valium recently. A few weeks after that i took myself to emergency in as i felt i couldnt cope with life anymore. I have two beautiful children which i know are a gift and i love so much and are so ashamed and afraid of feeling suicidal. I know i need help in order to be a functioning mother. I beleive that this is more than anxiety and depression and am in the process of moving interstate to seek real help. I am also interested in any advise from people experiencing bipolar as i wonder if it is what i have. Can you have bipolar without experiencing extreme highs?