I'm New Here and Looking for Support

[nathalieplan]

I am very new to this site but found it and thought that I would give it a try and hopefully find some support through here for the things that boggle me down. I'm thirty one years old and have been diagnosed with PTSD and Clinical Depression. I am an adult child of a father that commited suicide in front of my eyes as a young child and I am still struggling to deal with that. I have a boyfriend that sometimes can be the most amazing amn ever and other times can be the biggest child ever when I feel that I need him the most. Example: If I even show any emotion except happiness, he will make some excuse and ignore me until I get over what emotion it is. We have talked about this and we are working on it but its a slow process. I currently see a psycharist once a month who has me on Pristiq 50 mg a day and for the most part, it is does help me. But then there are those hard days where I feel like no one cares about me and I feel so alone. The only side effect that the Pritiq has given me is weight gain. I once was 115 pounds before I started taking it two years ago and now I am currently 220 pounds. I recently just joined Weight Watchers to get control of my weight and back to where I once was. Because I know that the weight I am now isnot healthy for me phsyically and emotionally. I am hoping I can make some new friends here that truly understand what I am going through.

[trying43]

Hi! Glad you are getting some help with what u went through, i can imagine it was very difficult for you.  As far as ur bf goes maybe he doesnt know how to cope with your emotions. Have you thought about couples counciling?  Maybe it would help your bf understand some of what u r feeling.  After I had my second son I joined WW and lost 60 lbs quick.  Its a good program as long as u stick with it esp if u ad a little exercise in there 3 days a week.  U will find your mood will improve too.  Good luck to u :)

[nathalieplan]

Yes my boyfriend and I are currently in couples therapy and it has been a blessing in disguise. We should have started much sooner than we did. Been together seven years and just started the therapy this past August. It's a slow process but we are learning better ways to handle one another and alos how to handle our own emotions without taking it out on one another. As for Weight Watchers, it is a great program. So easy to maintain. I hope that I have the success that you have had on it.

[Jibs1]

MedHelp has a weight tracker that may help you .. and also a food diary.  It's also an app for your phone.

http://www.medhelp.org/user_trackers/gallery/weight

Mobile Apps:
http://www.medhelp.org/land/calorie-counter-app

Also look at the mood tracker and mood app!