Nobody cares about me, literally

[gumbygumby]

What the hell is somebody supposed to do when they quite literally have no reason to live?

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[rabi37]

nobody love me,why god?i did wrong with u?or u dnt want thtsomebody love me

[justinlee037]

My dear friend you need not worry about how caring you or not.  We are here to support you

[DreamNaut]

Well clinical depression is like living in hell.. never had regular depression so I wouldn't be able to tell ya the difference :)   Either way depression really has nothing to do with being sad in my opinion.. My Pdoc best stated that depression IS suffering. Let's look at things realistically here. Even if you are truly "hideous", going to a gym will improve your self image as well as help alleviate depression. There are millions of "hideous" happy people out there. You dislike your family. Well work on becoming independent. If you isolate yourself, don't expect people to care about you. How can somone care about you if you don't exist in their lives?  Finally, if your depression medication does nothing you need to get a new one. You sound more angry at life than depressed to me. Life is a ******, but that doesn't mean you cannot be happy or make a positive difference in the world.

Good Luck friend.

[hopelessuseless]

alone, inside 4 walls, looking outside
i have nothing left to live for
i have become numb
does anyone really care.

[Richie1981]

Hello  there gumbygumby.That was one of my favorite cartoons growing up.I know exactly how you feel.I myself had a really bad night were i thought i was going to die.I kept myself from my family,friends,girlfriend and didnt even go outside.That that i got sick cause of this i watched the ''The passion of the christ''.It really helped.It made me realize that there is a god that loves you and that satan is just attacking you.He wants you to feel worthless and have self pity.Jesus died for our sins and doesnt want us to carry any burdens or problems of worry or have any anger.I really dont know but i ask you try to just get our your knees and ask god to releive you of any anger or burdens you may have.He will take all this away from you and make you feel right again.I will keep you in my prayers .God bless

[helpmeh]

if your family is evil then block off your feelings of them and keep it as low key as possible, force yourself to do something social that you dont have to have any requirements or knowledge of to join and hopefully someone will become friendly with you. Also, MOVE. if u r living with/ close to your parents that wont help. other states will have more activities to your liking and hopefully a more civilized and respective medical system. brush aside anything that puts you down, if you cant, try to replace the bad thoughts with hopefulness, and i guarantee u r not as bad looking as you let on. thats the bad thoughts talking. these r big tasks that are much thicker than words but if u can start over you will be much better off

[luppylupus]

I have an idea for you, how about going to a dollar store and get a small notebook, inside the notebook writ in the day, every night you have to say 3 good things, no matter what even it sounds silly to, could be you saw a cloudy today that reminded me of a ball

[Ararwa]

I have been reading the comments.  So what do you do when you are 60m your spouse dies,You have no children.  I moved here to take care of my parents (in their older 80s) and if it weren't for that, I would commit suicide.  I have been declared clinicly depressed and take depression but the thoughts are still there.  Now what.

Panguna

[Jaquta]

I expect you must be feeling really, really bad.  I'm sorry you feel so low.
It is never easy to find out a diagnosis, especially if it is one you don't want.
I'm sorry you feel so bad.

People not reading something you've written is not a reflection on you and does not mean that people care any less.

If it makes you feel any better I've had posts deleted.  Usually it happens at a time when you are stressed or need support so it feels like no one cares and that can leave you feeling worthless and alienated.

People care!!  

[gumbygumby]

a messageboard wont even take the time to read my topic.

[gumbygumby]

bump

[gumbygumby]

I just found out i have aspergers.

[ladydi4140]

i do know how you feel gumby...i dont care about anything..but i do have a family and kids...they are the only reason i am alive...i know i am lucky but i am so miserable..every day is an effort..i have no motivation to get up,to go outside,to do anything...the best part of my day is going back to bed...i am probably not a good person to be answering your post because of how negative i am..but i just wanted you to know that you are not alone...

[shaz853]

I am here if you want to talk to me. Take care

[gumbygumby]

NOBODY!

[shaz853]

Can i say that if your family are evil as you say, then killing yourself won't be revenge on them because if they don't care then why would killing yourself make them care, it will be you who loses out on life have i made sense. I too suffer from suicidal thoughts all the time i have a husband and children who love me and i know they would be devastated if i killed myself, i battle with depression daily and i stay alive for my children and sometimes i resent them because i do it for them. I have made two suicide attempts in the past five months and i was hospitalized the second time but even when i came home i still have these thoughts, i hate them and they depress me even more.I can see where you are coming from but you need to find another way, i am looking for some hope in life everyone keeps telling me there is hope. Do you take medication? Is there anyone you have to talk too? Take care

[gumbygumby]

I'm a man of logic. I put a lot of thought into what i say. Not having friends or family isnt just my imagination.

I shouldnt hurt myself because it will upset my "family"? Thats the biggest reason that i want to do it, revenge.

How am i supposed to feel if even YOU people discredit my brain(the only thing i have). Depression doesnt skew my thoughts and views because my thoughts and views are what show that, without a doubt, I have overwhelming reasons to be depressed and very little to be happy about.

Why does clinical depressions existance all of a sudden mean that real, warranted depression cant exist anymore??? I'm only 22 but i remember depression being used as a term for "very sad" but now it seems to only be a delusion.

[1900116]

I've been where you are now. I've said what you are saying, almost word for word. Depression skews perspective so that you are unable to recognize what feelings are your feelings and what feelings are the manifestations of depression. When I was depressed I felt like I had no one. I attempted suicide and was hospitalized. I got out and was shocked to find how upset everyone was. I was horrified when I realized that the possibility of no longer having me hurt everyone so much. I discovered that suicide would hurt everyone so much. I used that as my reason to live: I can't hurt people by not living. You're in a really rough spot. It gets smoother. And, when I was depressed I thought that every person that said this to me didn't understand my individual situation so I never believed people when they said I would feel better. But, you will feel better. Do everything you can to get your doctor appointment and meds squared away. There are other things you can do while you wait. Take St John's Wart, vitamin B, and folic acid. They are natural anti depressants. Eat a balanced diet. Avoid alcohol, sugar, processed food, and caffeine. Try to get enough sleep. Try to exercise. Go outside and get fresh air and sunshine. Don't isolate yourself. Make your environment a cheerful one: hang up pictures of things that make you happy, keep it well lit. Take advantage of hotlines and websites, they're free therapy. Try to distract yourself and not focus on how badly you feel. I found that writing helped a lot. Try keeping a journal. Some people prefer art, music, exercise, etc. You can try painting, photography, playing an instrument, listening to music, running, yoga, meditating, aromatherapy. Every morning take a hot shower. Do every little thing you can do make yourself feel better. All the little things add up. You should see if there are any non-profits around you. A lot of places offer cheap mental-health care.
Keep fighting. Don't succumb to depression. It'll get better. You have to want it to get better.
And, if you need to get away from your environment you don't have to start a new family. There are many options to get away and put yourself in a new, healthier situation. And, there are many of these options that you need very little money to start.

[gumbygumby]

Called to confirm the time of my next appointment that ive been waiting for forever has been cancelled because the disrespectful, sadistic ******* of a dr that destroyed the last hope i could force myself to have by giving me that abilify thought it would be appropriate to cancel my new appointment because it wasnt with him...

Absolutely hilarious. I want to be a writer, but you can't write stuff like this.

[boogieman]

Cont'd-and have been able to get better through the use of available resources. I understand your frustration with the doctors and meds, I've been trying different meds since 91, and haven't found the perfect combination, but I seem to be getting closer. The basics of proper nutrition, enough sleep, and exercise will help greatly. Also, there are likely support groups in your area free of charge that are composed of others dealing with similar issues. I wish you the best, and stay in touch with us here, we will help you through this. Take care, GM---

[boogieman]

Hello. First of all, there are people on this site that care about you. That's because we've been right where you are,

[gumbygumby]

was on an ocd medication for most of my life but now when i see doctors they strongly disagree with the decisions. Poisoned a child with an addictive pill that gave him diabetes..

i am on depression medication that does nothing. I live in california and can only go to government doctors. There is almost none left because arnold schwarzeneggar terminated my state so i can only get an appointment every couple months. My only real appointment was a huge disappointment and i never even got to try the medication because it kills people with diabetes. Have to wait more months to try my luck again, letting somebody who wont  even try to do thier job adequately gamble with my future.

[Omusicgame]

Listen gumby, you gotta understand its not easy.  You gotta truly understand that its not easy.  And when you go through it you gotta fight.  No matter what fight that pain.  Go out, take a long walk, get some exercise, just keep busy.  You gotta learn how to fight it.  When you keep fighting it, that pain will not overcome you as easy.  Trust me.