Severe Depression

[Strength18]

Hey guys,
As most of you here, I too have been going through a very low mood, low energy, gloomy time period. I recently became scared and thought that I might have been infected with HIV, however, after numerous postings on several forums, several calls to STD hotlines, and several visits to the doctors and clinics - everyone has reassured me that I was never at any risk of being infected. Now, I know that I should have this on the OCD or the anxiety forums, but I felt it was more pertinent here because I usually have bouts of depression that usually occur around this time period every year. As of now I do realize that I should be ok but I'm still dealing with all the anxiety I had. It was like I had a period of excitement and it went down all of a sudden, and now when I get anxious I attach a meaning to it and I fall into the same circle and I eventually get depressed.

Have any of you guys dealt with a situation like mine? If so, how did you guys cope with it?

How can I get through this phase in my life? I understand it's part of life but any guidance will help.

Lastly, what type of depression do I suffer from because regardless of anything I am always depressed in the spring time?

Any help would be greatly appreciated guys.

Thank you.

[rls27]

You said your depression usually sets in around spring time. It could be related to allergies. Or did something bad happen one spring and this time of year is a trigger for your depression and anxiety?

Health anxieties and depression often go hand in hand. One feeds the other. Have you considered therapy or do you have access to mental health care? I think that would be a good start to get thing sorted out and maybe get to the source of your depression.

[RainLover71]

Life tough,its not easy and don,t worry your not alone.There are loads of depressed people out there.The whole hiv incident would have been very stressful and that,s understandable,but now that you have put that issue to bed because you know your safe move on with your life and enjoy the beauty it has to offer.Motivate yourself to do the activities you love and things will get better.Your young and healthy and have everything to live for.One of the biggest sins is a life not lived.All the best.

[gofio]

Try to think of all the good things you have going for you, imagine how you'd feel if you lost everything, like those in Japan that have survived the horrors there recently. Not easy, but the only way to go is positive. See your Doc. No diagnosis can be given on here, only suppor, friendship etc. Let's know how you cope. Get professional help in order to avoid things getting worse. Good luck. George

[looloo141]

Hi there, I get quite gloomy at this time of year too, I much prefer the darker nights where I can hide from the world and relax on the sofa! I think its because everybody else loves the sunshine and wants to go out and have family picnics etc, I would rather poke my eyes out!
By the summer I have gotten used to it a bit more.. I attach this time of year to anxiety to, I worry that I can't keep the kids in the house as much, they want to go out and play with their friends and I worry constantly, I would much rather they were in with me.
My sister has said that about 12 years ago I rang her up in tears, was hard to understand and blurted out that I was dying of AIDS.. I don't remember doing this, but I have done worse, I Guess it means I was in a very anxious, paranoid, depressed place.
I cannot comment on what type of depression you have, but the anxiety is worse and harder to treat IMO.
I didn't cope to be honest, I had 3 small children, single parent and eventually ended up being dragged to a psychiatrist, it was 12 years ago so its a bit of a blur, but I felt I needed to die and my kids took away.
You really need to seek help immediately, you don't deserve to feel this way and it won't go away on its own, you dont need to pull yourself together or just get on with it, You need to see your doctor.
Good Luck