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[hrdcore]

4 days ago i tried suic. twice....am out after my 72, and there are helicptors flying over my house every half damn hour......ami paranoid r what? jeez, had a throwdow with a giant pig who found me a little more than he could handle,(i'm trained in alot of things)...and it took 6 guys to take my bleeding to death self down, (it hurt too i admit)but then the nurse got all mad when i enjoyed taking 46 stitches to the arm....strange days are afoot. be hard,    'core

[angelle73]

no medicine has been working for me, and even though no one beleves me i was taking it everday,, but if it dosent work i stop taking them, so i have been told that iam bi polar , didnt believe it at first , i think i do now , i have these highs , of being so dam happy , and then suddenly i want to kill myself , and this just happens , iam not sure if things trigger it , it dosent seem like it . when i think about it i think ive been doing this exact thing for many years, i tried to kill myself at least 10 maybe 12 times since i was 13 , which makes me feel like a failure because i couldnt even get that right, no one has to reply back just wanted to put it in writing what i was feeling today, thanx for the time

[Brian6]

I too have thought of suicide to end my pain, and i probably would have if it wasn't for the suicides of 4 of my friends in middle school. The pain seems bad now but the pain of losing a friend or family member to suicide is soo much worse, trust me.

Give yourself some time to heal and keep you mind set on the good things in life. You WILL get through it and make a better life for yourself. There are always people to help and a prayer every once in a while will do wonders. Good Luck!

[hrdcore]

thanks, i gues it cud be the weed makin me paranoid.......but it mellows me out....cops got stash, but i had more cash (lol)  selfmedding...the clonazine turns me into mush my bp is 64 over 47....whatever that means.....great to hear from you...love, peter

[venora]

you probably are being a little paranoid.but thats ok.You have gone through a rough time.
Give your self time to heal and let the meds kick in ok?keep posting
Love Venora