Thinking About Death

[Joystick22]

Im not sure if this qualifies as depression or not, or if this is normal or not. Anyways, im 18 years old and do have a lot of pvc's, having thee makes me realize just how fragile life really is. My problem is, I always have death on the mind theres not a day that goes by where i think wow i could die any minute. Its always on my mind.

Its not really that im overlly scared of dieing its jut the fact that I could die any minute as anything could happen. But as I say its always on my mind when im at school in class I think about it, just laying around the house its on my mind.

Im not sure what to do about it and im not to sure if its a form of depression or something else. Thanks.

[utahmomma]

I'm not a psychiatrist but I have been through depression and my 15 year old son is going through it right now too.

Depression can take many forms.  People think of someone who doesn't want to come out of their house, bathe, or is always crying.  That's not what the majority of us go through.  Many of us get up and go to school/work every day but things just aren't the same.  Life turns to just shades of gray.  We can't control our thoughts (anxiety) and worries and find our minds going back to something troubling.  Some of us get angry for no reason.

There are great resources to help with depression.  For my son and I it took a two prong approach:  antidepressants and therapy.  They often need to go hand in hand.  Please talk to your doctor and/or a counselor at your school.  Life doesn't have to be this hard.

[HelplessInOnt]

I know that feeling and it is a nasty nasty feeling...I have come to the conclusion that is a norm for a lot of us and is part of the growing process.  And yep you are right we could die any min. thats why you have to take control back of your life (from that little demon that hangs out in your head) and live it like it is the last, consider ourself lucky...Winter is the worst, lack of sunshine sucks, believe it or not laughing makes you feel good, grab a pile of funny DVDs and Veg out, eat popcorn laugh your guts out.  Another feel good thing is to keep a journal, write and write and write for some reason that helps, it also shows you where your highs and lows are.  I dont know of course if you are close to your paretns but Im sure they are worried and dont know how to talk to you about it,SHOCK them, you talk to them first. Seek help from a a councilor or your doctor even somekind of glergy (you dont need to be religious) and just let it all out leave no detail untold you would be suprised how good that feels to spill your guts, the good the bad the ugly. Hey you were put here for a mission, now get out there and find what it was (lol)    

[idesofmarch]

I to think alot of death and I am also being treated for depression.  I lost my Dad just 8 months ago and that always seems to trigger thougths of death of loved ones.  I don't think that much about my own death however.  I know where I am going when I die.  It will be heaven and that right there gives me peace.  I will see the people that went on before me and I hope to see Jesus.  I am a believer in Jesus and I have recieved Jesus into my heart just by asking Him to help me, guide me and forgive all my past,present and future sins.  He died on the cross to cover the sins of the world and now lives in heaven and in the hearts of people who believe in Him.  Is that the peace you are missing?  

[caregiver222]

PVC's (premature ventricular contractions) are more common than you would think and although they can have consequences, they can be caused by something as simple as a caffeine sensitivity leading to excessive ventricular irritability. Their presence is by no means a death sentence. I assume you have seen a cardiologist and had a thorough work-up. Make a meticulous log of your diet, nutritional and fluid intake, read the lables, and see if there is something in the food that could be causing this. Monosodium glutamate (which has many forms and is in many foods) can sometimes cause PVC's. Every day is a gift, and don't be pre-occupied with dying. Easy enough to say, I guess, but still true.

[Jeanie Scotland]

I don't know if it makes you feel any better but I think about death every day too. It fills me with sadness to think that no matter what you do or how hard you try it's always going to end in death. You can love people as much as you can but eventually it's all going to be gone. I am 27 now and these thoughts have been with me since I was a small child. Thinking of being nothing made me jump out of bed sreaming when I was little and things aren't much different today. I get those feelings more often now. At work, at home, out with friends. The only was I can temporarily cope is to blank it from my mind completely but it's there and it just comes back again. The doctor sent me to a mental health nurse but she never wanted to talk about death. It's weird but understandable, who would want to? I think the only way anyone copes is by not thinking about it. I have no one to talk to. My family, my friends, my partner are all wonderful but they don't want to talk about it. There's no point anyway as there's nothing anyone can do. I guess we just have to try to accept it. It's very hard but perhaps it's all we can do. If acceptance makes you feel happier then I would love to know how you are supposed to accept it.

[Alcook]

I thought it was just me being silly everytime i thought about death but websites like this have shown me that a lot of people share the same thoughts on death like me, and that maybe im not mad after all. Most nights i cry myself to sleep thinking of death. Im 16 and my bedroom is downstairs all the rest of my family sleep upstairs, i lie awake worrying if there all ok upstairs and that there all breathing and none of them is hurt. This gets to me so much that i have to get up out of bed and walk into there rooms to see if i can hear them breathe if i cant hear them lets when i start to panic. No one that im really close to has died, but the thought of them dying makes me feel really sad. I always talk about death and my mum thinks im being silly. I really want to go and see someone about it but il feel really stupid talking about my feelings. Im glad that theres other people out there wow feel the same way. I feel for all of you that have lost someone close to you and im sure in time you'l be able to pass this grey cloud in your life and focus on happier times:) X

[ArmaniKydd]

I too have the same excact problem, i look at things in a whole diffrent way now..i look at random people on the street and i think to myself oneday these people will die bla bla bla all this b.s, and when my family members have fun i think damn one day well die..24-7 my thaughts are death,death,death..things even remind me of things connected to death, but then i say to myself death is far far away i want to live my life without this: ok ill speak to a psycologist but at the same time im going to work on myself by myself with help from a specialist

[ArmaniKydd]

everything reminds me of death even the most random thing...a computer even because computers remind me of bad news

[scooby09]

Im 18 and i think about the same exact thing.. I can look at someone random and say "Man they're gonna die one day, where will they go?" But i dont want to take any antidepressant pills... I can stop thinking about it for a while then thats when it pops right back up in my head... I just want to be happy like everyone else and not think about this right now... I m hoping this will pass.. I lost my appitite, i dont really eat like i am suppsed to.. Things that i love i still wont eat it... Last night i got on my knees and prayed to God, and asked him to let this pass... Im hoping it will soon, very soon because i do not like thinking like this... Before all of this a was a very happy person, who loved to laugh, and talk on the phone with my bestfriend. But now i barely laugh, and i realy dont talk to my bestfriend like that anymore either.. Right now i dont even have my phone turned on.. I m asking God to please let this be something that i can get over... I went to church yesterday to hoping while i was in there i would come out stress/depress free, but that didnt seem to work either. Im asking God to please deliver me from this because i don't like feeling/thinking this way...

[ILADVOCATE]

Faith based recovery can be helpful but that doesn't contradict the idea of treatment. It still would be worth seeing a psychiatrist as they might be able to help. I, at first was unnerved by the idea of seeking treatment. But it doesn't change who you are as a person. It just stabilizes you and helps you get on with life.

[13_babyface]

Im 17 years old all i think about is death i wonder if its some sort of sickness. i lost over 22 people in my life and its really depressed lost 3 brothers from gang violence. i lost my cousin from gang violence and its just hard for me because i've seen most of friends die and i watched them not knowing what to do i live with it all my life and its for me to keep my head up im losing people i miss so much and its putting me down... i need help to get through everything i don't talk about my feeling or my emotions i hide them deep inside.

[ILADVOCATE]

Best to speak to a talk therapist first. A traumatic event can severely impact on anyone's life and it may or may not be depression. They can see if a further referral is needed.

[PixieNYC]

I am also thinking of death and what a horrible idea it is that the human animal is the only race (nope, there are no human races, just ethnic groups, a race is a different animal) that is AWARE of its own death. So what's the point, right? Love and forgiveness and compassion for sure! I am quite depressed right now, hence thinking of death a lot, but what makes me realize that I am NOT that depressed anymore, is that I loathe the idea of being DEAD! That means I somehow love life! Yes, that's it and that's GOOD. But hey, the idea that one will certainly die is still haunting me. I am not at all afraid of something happening to me in terms of that I'd die, I am much more afraid of the concept of BEING DEAD.

[deebelle3]

that is why life is so precious...it ends....................................I always thought I would have another chance, or find another job or man, or etc......some time there is not another chance,,,there is just today.......I think God or whatever God is to you, gave us this life to enjoy, to be happy, to make a difference....not to waste it.....most people always think there is another day...maybe not.....maybe what you have now is all there is...maybe we need to be grateful!!
I am 65 and I  wished I knew these lessons years ago...but I probably would not have listened!!

[13_babyface]

is it a sickness to think about death or is it just a depression we all go through

[gloomy_gus]

Whilst all this advise is very encouraging, it doesn't change the fact that one day, the sun is going go out which means that everything on the planet WILL die, this train of thought can be flipped round to your advantage though as it means that we're just a blip on the celestial radr and nothing we do really matters so you may as well do what the **** you like and stop worrying :D xxx