it wasn't the right job 4 u hon, fate leads us where we need to go....u r depressed, laying in bed is one of my major probs too, grab yourself by the bootstraps, get up on your feet, and call a dr. do it for you and the kids please....if only just you. peace,love,respect....'core
iI just read your post and I am so sorry hon,But I have to agree with hardcore it probably wasnt the right job and I am sure the God and Goddess have something wonderful planned for you.
You hang in there.
its ok to get down about a dissapointment like this.But like Scarlett Ohara says afte all tamarra is another day and you will conquer it all
Love
your Friend Venora
it may help to read my last post "a few words" i know the hell u r in....i am sending u my prayer and every ounce of strength i have left.u will get a job that makes that one look like a joke, and be a wonderfull success. i promise. love, peace,...'core
Thanks Venora and Core for your support. I was just watching my friends kids today to help her out. I love them to death but they are naughty and any other day I would have been able to deal but today was just a completely bad day. Earlier I mustered up the energy to ride to the store and take the dog for a ride. I decided to go to my moms because sometimes I can just go to her house and talk to her and it makes me feel better. I have a 12 year old sister who is sometimes too intelligent for her own good, but she has become very reclused from family and smart-mouthed. My mom was in a chipper mood and she was being so sweet to my Lil sis even though Lil sis was being a horrible jerk. When I was leaving she started to curse my mom right infront of me, it made me so FRIGGIN mad and today just wasnt the day. She goes to a school in a VERY well to-do neighborhood, mostly lawyers, doctors, business owners children. I see a lot of rebelion and liberal groups at her school. If you ask me, its just another reason to raise hell and show your a** for "peace" related issues, makes no sense. Well Lil sis wanted my mom to give her money to donate to the P.E.T.A group. My mom is 56 and isn't very healthy and she does the best she can and my sister knows that and here she is being so horrible to our mom who has been raising children for 37 years now and went through hell. Well when she cussed my mom infront of me (ive already talked to her about this many times)I yelled "You need to watch your mouth!! Especially infront of me because im just not going to have it!!" and I nudged her arm. She acted like she was going to hit me and screamed in my face and refused to talk to me after that. I know being threatened by a 12 year old doesnt seem serious but she is 5"8 and 160lbs. I am 5"9 and 138lbs, im afraid that she is going to hit my mom who is only 5"3 and feeble. It hurts too, today has just been awful. Im hoping tomorrow will be a better day. Im going to force myself out of the house and try to keep my spirits up. xoxo Faith