i understand your predicament. i just been through 2 endoscopies. 1 last year and another one feb of this year. The drs knock me unconscious on both egd;s and my only complain was a swollen throat the day after the procedure. a piece of advice kid, go find another dr. a more holistic one. a dr that shows sympathy and concern for his patients.
Wow, you poor kid. Yup, no more of those endoscopy exams for you! If they want to see down there or anywhere inside you, they're gonna have to do a scan, and if they want to fix something, they're going to have to do an operation. And I would suggest you put your experience to good use, so if you EVER have to go in and have ANY operation or surgery or whatever, you tell them that they need to give you the most powerful pain medicine they can come up with on top of (or without) the usual sedation, on account of what happened to you before. I had a colonoscopy, and they give me not only tranqs, but also pain meds, and talk about feeling good that day! So, it's all about what physician group uses what drugs. And then there's that small group that CANNOT have twilight sedation, period, there's a percentage that do not do well with it at all and have similar scary experiences like yours. You can even do a search of this community, and you'll find quite a few folks like you.
I think you should also turn your negative experience into a positive one by most definitely asking to see that man or whomever is in charge of his group, and sit down and explain just how bad things were, and find out what in the world went wrong, and just in general raise hell. Or if you want, just send an email or a letter to the top guy in his group. Could be you'll get your money back from the procedure, and also, you'll be saving all those other people from going thru what you went thru. You know, I had a reaction to a medicine that made my muscles all tighten up, had to go to the ER to get the antedote, and for years and years I also had nightmares about it, just like you, couldn't get it out of my head sometimes, but after a long while, it did fade to the back of my mind and rarely comes up... except right now I'm getting a little nervous! Thanks for sharing with us. Eventually the medical world will come up with a protocol when they suspect a patient isn't under like they're supposed to be.