Aa
driven crazy
Yeah, I am out of my mind ...
2 weeks ago I called in an escort in NYC. As stated in the 2 threads links at the end, all I remember clearly is I asked her to masturbate (without touching my body) and I sit 1 meters away to masturbate myself without touching her. Yes, clearly the above sounds zero-risk actions even with the presence of body fluids.
http://www.medhelp.org/posts/show/1241000?personal_page_id=950084
http://www.medhelp.org/posts/show/1243813?personal_page_id=950084
However I am now greatly in fear if I could have penetrating unprotected but I don't know / cannot remember! Dr. HHH replied and he probably thought I am rediculous - while in my rational mind I sort of think so; coz for my personality if I really did I would have been scared out and my first question regarding this won't be only about the fluids but about penetration.
Now everyday I am trying to recall what happened ... actually despite insufficient sleep at that time, I could recall all our conversations, her actions, gestures, but there are moments my memory a bit blur and I am so afraid what if something really bad happened at those moments. I even based on we didn't touch each other to measure the size of furnitures, which sot of suggests we couldn't have been "made" with the positions I imagined ...
Right, I will take a duo at 4 weeks for whatever reason :-( I am really sorry for such emotional post or maybe abuse of the forum ...
2 weeks ago I called in an escort in NYC. As stated in the 2 threads links at the end, all I remember clearly is I asked her to masturbate (without touching my body) and I sit 1 meters away to masturbate myself without touching her. Yes, clearly the above sounds zero-risk actions even with the presence of body fluids.
http://www.medhelp.org/posts/show/1241000?personal_page_id=950084
http://www.medhelp.org/posts/show/1243813?personal_page_id=950084
However I am now greatly in fear if I could have penetrating unprotected but I don't know / cannot remember! Dr. HHH replied and he probably thought I am rediculous - while in my rational mind I sort of think so; coz for my personality if I really did I would have been scared out and my first question regarding this won't be only about the fluids but about penetration.
Now everyday I am trying to recall what happened ... actually despite insufficient sleep at that time, I could recall all our conversations, her actions, gestures, but there are moments my memory a bit blur and I am so afraid what if something really bad happened at those moments. I even based on we didn't touch each other to measure the size of furnitures, which sot of suggests we couldn't have been "made" with the positions I imagined ...
Right, I will take a duo at 4 weeks for whatever reason :-( I am really sorry for such emotional post or maybe abuse of the forum ...
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