Mom Died, Want Hep-c txt..Bipolar/More Lows

[Frankie46]

My Doctor is afraid to start me on my Hep-C treatment, Because I am Bipolar/...Last 6....More Downs...My Mind is Racing..My body can't catch up...I used to be able to clean,I swear, I can paint a entire block..lol..
I was on Savella, For Fibromylia...Once Mom Past, A Month Ago, I have completely forgotten.to take them...so it's out of my system.
I've also noticed, I have been losing & spending money..I have no clue & show for?
Without leaving my apartment..Go figure!!! Ordering, giving $$ away..I Don't HAVE! lol
I thinks it's called Hypomania?....I'm very.Forgetfull! Very Confused  :(  
Missed my Last Appt w my Shrink, thinking about getting on Prozac..<<IS THAT THE RIGHT CHOICE? TO CALM ME DOWN?
...Sodium intake...I was on Depakote, I blew up to 178, I'm only 5"1...Look like a little  walking washing machine!!  I was huge!!...lol..
.PS. not a private shrink..so I'm lucky if she looks @ me.. I am Angry..Confrontational Defensive,& I'm All Over The Place, A Simple Sentence is a Massive Mission for ME....... Dying Over My Mom...


Plzzzz Now I'm afraid of Prozac from What I have Read from Others who have Bipolar w Suicide...
Have No support From Family!! Basically I'm the Embrassment of The Family! Which I hide very Well,@ One Time,Now I have More Phobias! Paranoid!!  ..With My Mom Gone...I'm Severley Depressed..Suicide I have been in & Out of Hospitals throu-out the 90's...On Suicide Watch & Committed..& Escape to just have the cops get Me
I'm on medicaid (I am grateful) Everytime I call...for a new shrink..they don't take medicaid....(Huge Sigh)
Love This Site Thank You All~~~~**
I Really want my Hep-C txt..... Maybe I Should Wait?

[Trinity4]

Oh Frankie, bless your heart.  I just think you have more problems than anyone can really help you with here.

Try to find a good doctor who can work through all of this with you, get stabilized and then maybe treatment can be a consideraton.   Antiviral medications can send somebody over the top who never had any psychological disorders to begin with.

One step at a time and hopefully things level out and you'll have a full grasp on things.

Good Luck
Trinity

[mj6000]

I'm sorry for what you're going through and the death of your mother,I hope things get better for you soon.
Not everyone needs to treat right away.Have you had a liver biopsy? That would be important in the decision to treat now or not. Treating is an individual decision made by you and your Dr. No one else really knows when it's best.

[eureka254]

Oh, Frankie, I'm so sorry for your loss.  I know you're still grieving -- give yourself a little space to get things together for yourself. It takes time to heal, and I know you're just trying to fill the whole in your heart.  Your memories will do that in time -- be good to yourself, and I hope you find the right doctors to help you to better health. All my best.
~eureka

[charm27]

I am so very sorry for your loss. I know what its like to lose someone we love so. We all do.

Just sending prayers your way--things will turn around.

Peace....

Charm

[Frankie46]

Thank you for ALL,
For Taking the time to respond to my post, I've tried several different Shrinks, None take SSI Medicaid/HMO..Clinics are Now Packed..Standing room Only! Jersey City N.J Don't accept new patients :(, believe me, I've tried calling my HMO w Medicaid, they keep sending me list..Most of Physicians # are (Residents) No docs, Docs that have retired..or Die,The thought of me trying to continue doing this on my Own @ this time.I can't mask myself No longer.(w Family).BUT I will have a stern talk w My  (Shrink) to look @ ME! When I talk!!
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I need this Treatment, But I need Antidepressant (Primary Dr) said, I might not be able to handle txt..

>>MJ600 Yes dear I did have Biopsy,8 yrs ago.. He suggested 2 yrs ago, To Wait..For Some New Treatment w/ Less Sight Effects to Come Along...I feel as Thought I'm on the Clock! that's mental! I'll Leave it, for my Bipolar Comm..lol OMG You gotta laugh...
I've been waiting so long, I aged overnight, feeling overwhelmed, just me & 1 sister taking care of Mom w Alzimiers/Parkinson round the clock..Not complaining, It's An Honor & Privilage taking care of My Mom..My Eyes just don't look, I don't feel healthy..

PS My Primary Doc is Wonderful..he's private I'm Blessed to have seen him @ the time he was taking medicaid..he kept his old patients, thank God..  :) 1 step @ a time..:)

>>>EUREKA, I NEED TIME, Yea I'm overwhelmed..BESIDES TAKING CARE OF MOM..DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO..THANK YOU SWEETY, THERE'S ALWAYS SOMETHING TO DO..I SKETCHED MY MOM ALREADY...IT'S BEAUTIFUL...Thank You ALL...This means so much to ME!! TRIED TO SEND EVERYONE A THANK YOU NOTE BUT MY COMP IS ALSO A Bipolar ..LOL.

.THANK YOU ALL FOR YOUR CARING,PRAYERS, & RESPONSE~~~~~~XO
Once Again T.Y..The Best of Health,Love,Light,Peace To You & ALL Your Love Ones~~God Bless, Frankie