Post Tx. Suicide

[R Glass]

Does anyone know of a study about Post Tx. Suicide, hopefully with statistics. I am not am not contemplating suicide. I have noticed a few people, through PM and Forums, (including myself) having problems adapting to life after tx. I am not talking about going through the initial Recovery Process. I am talking about the one’s that should have fully recovered long ago and realize life will probably never be the same do to tx. I am going to repeat myself “I am not am not contemplating suicide.”

[jmjm530]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=08epso8yRBQ&feature=related

[portann]

'He and his wife Mimi  had quarreled before leaving for the bookstore signing because he hadn't given her a present on that day, her birthday. (Pictures of her at the signing show a strained smile on her face.) It was several days before she returned to their home to find flowers, dead now, that he had arranged to be delivered while they were at the book signing.'

I never forgot that and it influenced me a lot.

To my pals here on the forum, cyberspace flowers to you all. And before the book signing.

[jmjm530]

Maybe it's partly a momentum thing and I not only lost my momentum on treatment but I got stuck in reverse for 54 weeks. Remember Farina's book, "Been down so long it looks like up to me". If it wasn't for the fact they didn't treat HCV back then I'd swear he's talking about SOC.

-- Jim

[Lady Lauri]

'Post' now being a year later, I think it's the latter!!

[Lady Lauri]

geterdone...please do! (open up a bit). I can tell u want to, have something to add ;)

jmjm, exactly- a big part of the isolation/recluse mix. Not being up to, or wanting to, do the activities, social get together's. My friends, aka...real friends, I have kept thru this and thats few of the hundreds of acquaintances I have in social scenarios. Those I don't 'miss' but do miss the want to go out there and run into them, make sense? The isolation I'm all too much accepting, which is whats bothering me the most. Turning down events, invites 80% of the time, wasn't me before. The question I can't answer is...  is this 'post tx' or..... that's the way it's going to be from now on!?

[Trish77]

My point ... is that that it doesn't take a "type" of person.  The treatment drugs don't seem to allow us that luxury and they don't discriminate nor favour anyone.  It seems to me it's a crapshoot to some degree.  Your comment indicates that it's within our own hands. Perhaps to some degree and yet for alot of people it's entirely out of their hands.  The last thing in the world I wanted was to think like *that* after successfully navigating treatment.

I feel that one of the reasons I got through treatment so well is that I determined it to be so and mentally steered my attitude and will to get through it as best as I could. I have always approached the challenges in my life with a certain amount of "conquer or die" attitude. I suppose that's why the depression afterwards baffles me so.  No amount of willing it to go away was enough. It took alot more than that.  

I hope your certainty that it could never happen to you is enough to make it so.  It didn't quite turn out that way for me.

Anyway.  I