you know it's not us !!, we are not in rage ( great movie ) it is them , WE are the ones eating xanax zolotfa, By the hand fulls. And them, the people around us, even stop to ask them self , ( WHY DID WE , TALK SO NICELY AND THE SPELLS WE CAST AT THEM . WHATS WRONG WITH LINDA BLAIR .SHE, IS MY POSTER BABBIE DOLL ) Hay, when you look like chucky,they should be mine reader ( hello ) See this what is coool about are Forum one of us goes a little off to even say riba rage,we all know how linda blair is feeling.
These stories are great -- but rockymo -- that has to be a classic. I can just see you putting your fist down the dog's throat to retrieve the dog bone and your hubby cracking up! You cracked me up too.
I have just become more reclusive than I normally am. On the weekends if I see no one or get no calls, I am as happy as a lark.. In fact, lately I have been wondering if I even like people at all. They are such a burden sometimes.
frijole
You are not alone.
I've always been a calm person, but while on tx, I have trouble backing down from a confrontation. Examples...slamming my hand on my steering wheel in frustration, almost physical confrontation with my wife, firing off a few angry emails, Yelling at my father (a physician who would do/say/spend anything to see me get well) that he was crossing the line in forcing me to make suggestion on meds to my Dr. ) Dad was right and never should've doubted him.
Part of the problem is that the adrenaline rush of a dispute makes me think clearly and is a little liberating from the anemia and drug induced zombie I sometimes feel like.
Am doing better on Wellbutrin in AM and low dose Xanax before I walk into the house after work to prevent a family argument. Lexapro sexual side effects were a deal breaker and Wellbutrin is working better.
If you don't have a psychiatrist ,get one. Mine might be my most important treatment team member.
Good Luck,
R
Dh's new nickname for me is "The Terror"; I'm gonna call PCP and see if AD's need adjusting, or am I just crabby 'cause I can't eat. Thrush s ux.
We all need to continue to tell these stories Laughter is Life's bet Medicine!
These made me laugh:)
NYgirl is 100% correct. Everyone likes to call it riba rage but it is the interferon that causes the irritability. On one occasion I started yelling at some huge guy that was about the size of an NFL lineman in a parking garage. I got so bad that I went off on a Philadelphia cop who told me I could not have my car where it was. I went into a profanity laced tirade, I just totally snapped. I still to this day can not understand why he did not arrest me. On both occasions I was wanting them to engage me, which is totally crazy and out of character for me. It was at that moment that I knew I needed help. My doctor put me on Lexapro and Xanax. He also sat my 2 youngest sons down wen he saw them with me on another occasion and explained to them that the medicine I was taking was making daddy so angry. He said it is really important that they understand it is the medicine doing this to daddy. I still to this day appreciate him doing that as I did not ask him to. He is the head of Gastroenterology at UPenn and he stopped what he was doing and went out of his way to sit them down and explain this to them when he saw them.
I remember my first treatment back in 2000 when I was taken 3 interferon shots a week. I had to go the clinic to get my lab work done every 2 weeks and one day I went, feeling just horrible...and was waiting at the front of the line when this guy walks in and decides he is going to stand in front of me....obviously he did not know the danger that lurked behind him. The nurse called out, "Who's next?" and I screamed in a voice only Linda Blair can do, "I AM!!!!" This man's face went white and he quickly moved aside...(smart move!) and I proceeded to the front desk. Everyone in the clinic was looking at me like I was a crazy...which now that I think of it, I must have been at that point...lol ...thank goodness we can laugh about our experiences...
I went off on my dog the other night. I gave them a treat and my boxer has to sniff it and make sure it's boxer worthy, so while he was doing this the 126lb yellow lab ponces like a shark stole it. I pulled him out from under the table, stuck mhand down his throat got the treat and gave it to the boxer. My husband was hysterically laughing! :)
Riba Rage is pretty prevalent in me right now. I had a Huge episode this morning and told everyone to go away. I am on anxiety meds & AD but INC is really making my AD not work full potential right now.
11 days on countdown off of Inc, so I am hopefully looking at some peaceful days for the future. Ready for Riba Retirement, and it cant come soon enough :)
just lost it in the shower-showerhead was leaking, DH fixed it. He then did a dead on imitation of me losing it soaking wet and mad as a wet hen. I'm glad I'm already on AD's.
Have been told to shut up, take my anxiety meds and go back to bed on a couple of occasions, by family members I'm staying with while treating and it was well deserved.
You know it's not really the riba it's the interferon right, it's just called ribarage cause it sounds snappier (no pun intended).
you don't even know the half of it.. during an online banking problem went
pathetically postal. they were wrong but it was so embarrassing since my 21 yr old son witnessed part of it though he did not know i was on treatment..
yeah, i am not inane, just plain crazy like the rest of us!
Oh boy it got so bad I almost got divorced!!!!! I would snap at my husband and argue for no reason at all, everything made me upset, moody, cranky, and snappy.
I would even yell at my dog whenever she barked, which is all the time, every time!!!
I Thank God my hubby knew it was not me but the meds. Now that I finished treatment I feel so much better, and everything seems like a very bad nightmare.
dont get me going, we;ll be here all day!
Oh thanks for making me laugh!
I woke up one day and yelled at my husband, " I'm so irritated at feeling irritable."
Yesterday, I let it all out on the AT&T guy on the phone, tears and all.
Heck, if you can learn to direct the rage it can work for you.
Luckily, I can usually spot it within myself which is why I turned down the Thanksgiving invitations. Don't want to have to do damage control from tongue lashings afterwords, better to stay home.
If I could stay focused enough to paint, which I can't, I'd enter my Frida Kahlo period right about now.
Riba Rage? Well, that's a pretty nice way of saying completely insane. At times I am cussing & yelling at a small crumb. Or how about at night laying there with Guns & Roses in your head yelling at you loaded like a freight train, I'm on the night train. Yeah, that says it. Your body is loaded with monster drugs trying to kill a monster. My family has decided to not talk with me, because they are mad if I've taken drugs to keep it all manageable & they're wondering why I'm talking groggy. Then they state well, you're saying alot of cuss words lately & it's not nice to us so they won't talk to me at all & let me know I am not of sound mind. If I just took a shot I'm so crazy I'd like to tell them where to shove a shot into theirselves. It's not the real me. It's crazy. Like get a chainsaw & chop up the furniture. Or feel like the Hulk busting out of your skin. I do laugh & joke. But alot of people, mostly my family don't get it. I'm glad my sons try & my friends try. Wow, irritability is not even it. It's crazy nuts! I pray to God each day to make it through & hopefully in the future help others. My son says no water after shot equals turret syndrome for my mom! lol. yes, water. If you have family stepping away I feel your pain. But I actually don't understand why any of them do that. I flipped out on the verizon lady & finally told her I was on hep c treatment: it turned into a blessing because her brother is going through it. All I can say is hang on hang on tight! If you believe in God man go to him.
I'm going to ask for ADs tomorrow. I already have some anger issues when not on treatment and now I am like son of sam or something. Have been getting really panicky feeling, my relationship is teetering on the edge. I just hope all this stress isn't hindering the treatment....
I'm just b----- all the time lol
Agree with Lynda also. I was thinking the same thing about interferon possibly being the culprit. For me there is a profound difference between irritable and full of rage. Since the level of riba is rather consistant with a dose every 12 hrs, and inf given once a week, I do notice some lower levels of tolerence earlier in the week. Might be just a coincidence? Of course, my outbursts ALWAYS appropriate and don't try to tell me otherwise. - shot Friday night. lol
I stopped short of the bowl but I did get the tapes of the bowl :)
Doin time- lol. I think I read about that study in Rolling Stone Magazine. I tried ads years ago. No worky for me. I do take 1/2 Xanax if I need sleep.
I've got a Tibetan singing bowl and use prayer n meditation a lot. I've even resorted to smoking a few cigarettes. My Dr said to do whatever it takes to get by for 11 months.
If I'm gonna be an elaborate fighting machine, I want a tricked out uniform to go w it.. Karen :)
lynda is spot on ...but "RIBA RAGE" sounds way more cool than Intereferon rage :)
Ribavirin will make you irritable, impatient and on edge. Interferon is usually the culprit that leads to inappropriate outbursts. Interferon causes depression and irritability and anger are common symptoms of depression. Rage itself is a psychiatric manifestation and interferon is the drug with the FDA-mandated psychiatric warnings - not the ribavirin.