help

[goinseagle]

Hi everyone By now most of you know Audrey has stopped treatment I am happy for her but sad for me She was my rock and now i sit here crying because i don't know anyone else. Audrey has promised to be there but I know once treatment stops you try to forget for awhile that you have this horrible dragon I had to stop tx last year after attemting suicide and then tried to get to my guns when it didn't work. I am on week six and am doing ok except for the small bout of pnuemonia. I am not suicidal or depressed but i really don't have anyone who undersstands what we go through i have 5 kids still at home and they all have thrie own problems because they are teenagers and don't care about anything else lol my husband trys to understand but when he sees me doing most of the normal thuings that a mom has to do he doesn't realize the pain I'm in and probably never will. You know what I'm going thruogh and GOD knows i need help sorry if it sounds like i'm a baby but this is the only way i have to vent Audrey and i corresponded everyday and i am going to miss that so please help me get through this

                        Thank you
                            Helen

[harley dude]

Bill, just stick with the companies in the US, Don't deal with any overseas,mexico,ect.- If you can contact them by phone, and E-Mail- and are in the US they'll be OK. I did hear that they might pass a law soon where you won't be able to purchace some of the meds they are selling online at the present time- I believe alot of under aged kids are getting certain ones just to get high off of. This will all probably come to a stop sooner or later. See Ya - Harley Dude

[hepcbilly]

hi  
jamster did you say qualudes? haha those were the days huh?

we thought they'd never end,,,oh yeah i was in the gypsy beads and dresses barefoot dancing ahhhhh and now im here,hugerzzzzz jamster   mrs B

[Tracers]

I am new was a little bummed to hear Audrey had to stop treatments.  I have been reading this forum and am familar with what is going on.  I don't know all her circumstances but I understand what a hard decision that had to be. I am 4/24 and doing pretty well.  I understand your depression and I also need support and can be your support.  Everyone here is so kind (most of the time) LOL   And so honest.  I need that because we need people not afraid to tell us straight up when its a matter of life or death.  I have fatique.  However, I had fatique before the treatments.  I took naps daily. It is worse now of course, but I am still working.  I don't work full time.  I have 3 jobs that I do some from home and some from other offices.  My 3 day a week I would like to drop but I need the money. I am a single mom with 1 nine year old boy.  Five kids-WOW.  You must be a saint. I need to find something more I can do from home to makeup that income. I to have had a hard time with depression in the past and have been on AD's a loonnnnng time.  This has me somewhat worried. Since my doc doesn't pay attention.  i have an appt to see a new doc on the 13th.  My doc said hear is your tx see ya in 6 months. NOT GOOD! I need to stay close to you people. My e-mail is ***@****.  I would love to stay in touch with you.  For both of us.  Are most people working or have you had to stop or reduce hours?  Since I have always been tired I wonder if I will have energy after treatment I have never had for years.  It is so hard because like everyone says you kind of waiting daily to see what will happen and how we will feel. Audrey best to you.  Hope you stay close.  Helen we are all in this together.  You have alot on your plate so stay close so we can all watch each other.  Thank everyone for all you have to share.
Tracy

[jg2001]

You made me laugh out loud!  Qualudes?  OMG, I haven't heard of those in years! I'm clean 12 years!  But boy, I remember! 5 Kids = Qualudes...sounds about right! Lol!

[BD146]

You did the right thing in reaching out.
Remember that going through tx alone is a choice.
I am glad that you are asking for help.  That is one of the first and most important steps.
And no, Audrey will not abandon you. That is not her style.
Never hold anything inside.  Let it out and let it go.
There will always be someone at this forum who will be able to identify with your feelings who may just have the answer.
But you must give us the chance to be here for you.
God bless you and your family.
You are in my prayers....Edgar

[DH Bill]

Goingseagle, That's what this site is all about HELPING AND BEING HERE FOR EACH OTHER.

Indy, Just to clarify my statement, I do very much appriciate your input, you really do care about us here.

Harley Dude, just responded to your response under "just wondering" thanks

dh