anyone not in the holiday spirit

hi girls i dont know whats wrong with me im so not into christmas this year and its my fav time of year i was out shopping yesterday and i came home and started to cry, i've been crying a lot the past week, since i got my first af after my m/c in nov, i got my surge yesterday on my first test, i hope that is a good sign that my bf and i will concieve (conceive) this cycle, im sooo depressed all i can think about is that i would of been 5 months and so happy esp. right now b/c of xmas, anyone feeling the same? Best of luck to everyone ttc hope we get a xmas gift and a bfp for the new year. Wish me luck! Good luck to all!

Sticky Baby Dust To All!

[lovefamily]

I'm sorry you are feeling so blue.  I struggle a lot with the holiday blues too.  After losing my 12 your old son a little over a year ago and then a M/C in Sept. at 6 weeks pregnant it is easy to feel sorry for myself.  But I fight depression and tell myself to get up and fight it.  I refuse to let it win and have power of me.  I am going on each day with God's grace.  Many say time heals.  No it doesn't.  It teaches coping skills thats all.  We never get over our losses.  We just learn to cope and hang in there.  The last thing I want is to make everyone miserable around me.  I made myself put up Christmas decorations this year.  Then the next day, I found out I was pregnant.  So I feel like some good is finally coming my way.  Now, if I can just stop worrying about every little thing with this pregnancy.  This baby will not replace what I have lost but will give me a since of hope and joy for the future.  You are going to make it because you are a women.  We are remarkable creatures with strength that we do not realize we have.  So you hang in there and put your focus on who you can bring joy to and make happy this Christmas season.  I promise it will help.

Blessings!

[lovefamily]

Thank you for your encouragment.  A great big hug to you!  

Blessings!!

[michellejune]

I thought I was doing so well mentally after my mc and Friday we went to a family party and 2 cousins have babies and it was more than I could handle. I went home and had a breakdown. I find my spirit comes in spurts but we are anxious to have a healthy baby in 2007.

[Morgan277]

Last year I had a d and c on Dec 16th, making the holidays miserable for me.  This year, same time I am now 32 weeks pregnant.  What a difference from last year!  
hang in there!

[jayhawk822]

I am in the process of m/c (heartbeat is high 60s-less than half of what it should be).  I haven't started bleeding yet, and we are waiting for the heartbeat to go to zero-how morbid is that?!  But, at the same time, I refuse to let this taint the season.  Even if I don't quite feel like it, I have decided Christmas is exactly what I need.  Not to mention the fact that my faith makes it not about me, but about others.  I feel in this way, I can dive in and be distracted and focus on others and all our blessing and what is truly important.  I think those are the times you hear of good things happening for people (those ttc getting pg, etc).  So try hard for the season to be healing, not depressing, but know what you are experiencing is totally normal and okay.  Just try not to let it get the better of you, okay?  You are in my thoughts and prayers!

[Jenny100]

That was an awesome post. Thank you..it helped me, and probably many others.You are such a strong, wonderful person. Your faith and hope are an example to everyone who has struggled with a tragedy. You are right--you just have to go on and find happiness in other places. Your new baby will be so good for you...it will give you joy and fulfillment after all of your suffering. When I feel down, I often think of you and how your trials have been so severe...but you have faith and hope and you keep going on.
You are AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[New Mommy 2 Be 2007]

thanks for the comments lovelyfamiy u nailed it best of luck to all of us! merry christmas

[nwhite]

Yes I have that feeling also! My baby would have been due next week. The week of Christmas. Now its just a sad time. We didnt do anything special for christmas this year. We just are not into it.

[Baby Vol]

What a trooper you are! Goodness, if you aren't an inspiration to me, I don't know WHAT is. I will keep you (as i do all these women) in my prayers! Candy

[truckercat]

So comforted to know I am not the only one who is sad this month. I was due in October,but lost the baby in May. I am so sad that I don't have my daughter here to lavish with gifts and show off to everyone.  It is so lonely without her here.