exhausted of being worried

[jek33]

I am exhausted of worrying. I have had mild sensory issues since August. That is five months of being concerned. I have had every blood test, and MRI and numerous physicals. All is normal. At first, it was in my head -- brain fog, off-balance, slurring words, etc. But, all of this was only noticeable to me -- not anyone else in my life and no doctors. This is when I went to my PCP and then the first neurologist and starting testing. Three neuros later and all those tests, nothing. In the meantime, I have tingling in my fingers, both hands, almost every day. It is intermittent. Recently, I have noticed floaters in my eyes that only appear when I am looking at white walls or sunshine. When you google that, it says it is normal and is part of aging (only 33). Now, last night and today, my whole left leg is feeling different. Not numb, not pins and needles, just waves of subtle sensory "weirdness". That is how I would explain it to a dr -- no reason no one believes me and thinks that I am making all of this up.

I have done everything I am supposed to do including exercise, see a therapist, etc. I am a high-functioning, FT employee, mother of two young kids, etc. I do not obsess about things and cannot believe that for the last five months, this has been on my mind constantly. I am not making this up, and I am convinced I have early-stage symptoms of MS. But, there is nothing I can do about it but worry!?!

Any ideas or thoughts would be great. I can no longer speak to my husband about this as he feels as helpless as I. I don't want him to know I am still fixated on this. I think he thinks I am insane...

[jek33]

Thank you, Tammy. I started a log in August. Even I cannot believe some of the symptoms that I have experienced now that they have passed!

[maxthecat9196]

I know this is disconcerting for you.  It awful to know something is just "not right", and yet the doctor's can find no evidence.  

The thing is, if this is MS or something that resembles it- it will in time come out.  One of the doctors' I used to see told me that sometimes a condition like this "smolders" for a while, before it is obvious enough to be picked up.  Also, sometimes people can have an event (even a long lasting one), that they cannot find the reasons for, and nothing else really ever happens to them.  

Keep a diary, but start with history.  My new neurologist was very impressed with mine, and said it was a good idea for everyone with neurological symptoms to keep one.  It's also somewhat cathartic to write things down.  

I hope you get the answers you need, but most of all- I just hope this goes away, and never comes back.  

Sincerely,
Tammy