DOING OKAY

[young at heart]

JUST LET YA ALL KNOW I'M HOLDING UP,I DID HAVE MY MENTAL MELT DOWN TODAY AS REALITY HAS SET IN.I WAS NUMB TO EVERYTHING UNTIL YESTERDAY AFTERNOON,THEN I LOST IT FOR A WHILE.

ITS GONNA BE A LONG ROAD A HEAD,I HAVE NOT DONE THE CONTENT LOSS YET,MY INSURANCE IS SENDING IN A CONTENT SPECIALIST,I WON'T NEED TO BE THERE UNTIL SHE GETS TO THE ROOMS BURNT BEYOND RECONITION,THATS WHEN I'LL HAVE A HARD TIME.

MANY HERE KNOW THE HARD WORK I HAVE PUT INTO THIS HOME MYSELF,THIS IS THE HARDEST,KNOWING THAT MY HARD WORK AND TIME SEEMS TO BE A POINTLESS EFFORT.

THE CONTRACTOR ONLY DOES FIRE RESTORATION, A GENERAL CONTRACTOR WON'T DO.WE TALKED TODAY ON THE PHONE AS HE FINISHED BOARDING UP THE HOME AND COVERING THE ROOF AS WE WERE HIT WITH SUBSTANTIAL RAIN THE LAST 2 DAYS.

THIS CONTRACTOR SAID HE WILL BE THE ONE WORKING ON MY HOME AND HE'LL HAVE 2 CREWS WORKING,1ST AND 2ND SHIFT.I ASK HIM HOW WILL THEY TELL IF WATER DIDN'T GET DOWN THE OTHER WALLS AND HE SAID THEY CAN TELL.I EXPLAINED THAT I HAD MS AND DIDN'T NEED TO WORRY ABOUT BLACK MOLD DOWN THE ROAD.

HE GOT REALLY WEEPY ON THE PHONE AND SAID HIS GRANDFATHER HAD MS AND HE IS VERY COMPASSIONATE ABOUT THE DISEASE AND THE CITY HE LIVES IN HE IS AN MS ADVOCATE AND IS VERY INVOLVED IN THE FUND RAISING FOR THEIR COUNTY MS CHAPTER AND MY HOUSE WILL TAKE PRESIDENT,HE STAYED HE HAD 2 SMALL JOBS TO FINISH AND THEN HE WILL GET HIS CREW STARTED.

HE SAID MY HOME WILL LOOK LIKE A PALACE AND IT WILL BE HANDI-CAP EXCESSABLE LIKE IT IS AND I WILL BE INVOLVED IN ALL THE DECISIONS RIGHT DOWN TO THE PAINT ON THE WALL AND THE WINDOW TREATMENTS.

I KNOW THE GOOD LORD SENT THIS CONTRACTOR MY WAY.

MANY FRIENDS AND FAMILY HAVE COLLECTED ITEMS FOR US TO START OVER.THE COMMUNITY SUPPORT HAS BEEN OVER WHELMING.

STILL STAYING IN A HOTEL ROOM,GOING A BIT STIR CRAZY,MY INSUANCE COMPANY IS LOOKING FOR TEMPORARY HOUSING FOR 6 MONTHS.I DON'T NEED TO WORRY ABOUT THAT.SO THAT HELPS.

MY NEURO HAS BEEN INFORMED AND I AM TO CALL HIM EACH WEEK.HE  SAID TO AVOID STRESS,THATS EASY FOR HIM TO SAY.

I HAVE HAD TO MANY RELAPSE ALREADY,SO I'M GONNA TAKE EACH DAY SLOWLY,COUNT MY BLESSINGS,AND NOW EVERYTHING IS IN THE LORDS HANDS.

ITS HARD TO KEEP THE FAITH,BUT I KNOW THAT HE WOULD NEVER HARM ANY OF HIS CHILDREN,I SURE HAVE BEEN TESTED IN THE LAST YEAR.BUT I SURVIVED,AND WE WILL SURVIVE THIS.

QUIX,I KNOW THIS WAS TO BE A BETTER YEAR AND ALL THIS WAS TO SUBSIDE.BUT I DIDN'T WAIT ANYTHING OUT THIS TIME,I DID HAVE SMOKE INALATION,SO I WENT TO MY GP THE NEXT DAY AND HAD MY LUNGS CHECK,I HAVE HACKED BLACK **** AND I KNOW I HAVE BLOWN A BUCKET OF SOOT OUT OF MY NOSE.SO HE IS TREATING THE LUNGS WITH ORAL PREDNISONE AND HE GAVE ME A NASAL SPRAY AND INHALER.HE'S TREATING THE SMOKE BURNS ON MY FACE AND HANDS,PLUS WE UPED MY STRESS AND ANXIETY MED TO GET THROUGH THIS TIME PERIOD.SO FAR IT HAS HELPED.

THE NEXT WEEK OR SO WILL BE THE HARDEST,IF I CAN GET THROUGH THEM,THEN I THINK I'LL BE OKAY.

I HAVE SOME SYMPTOMS TRYING TO SHOW THERE UGLY SIDES,MY LEGS ARE REALLY SPAZZY AND MY EYES ARE EXTREMELY PAINFUL,GP THINKS THEY ARE BURNT FROM THE HEAT AND SMOKE,IF THE SYMPTOMS PROGRESS THEN I'LL HAVE NEURO TREAT THE SYMPTOMS.

I HAVE HAD VERY LITTLE SLEEP,WENT FROM FATIGUE TO INSOMNIA,BUT I THINK SOME OF THAT IS ADRENALIN KEEPINING ME UP,THAT AND MY MIND IS RUNING RAMPID.

YOUR PRAYERS ,HUGS AND THOUGHTS HAVE BEEN  DEEPLY APPRECIATED,AND SO DEEPLY NEEDED RIGHT NOW.

WISHING YOU ALL GOOD HEALTH AND SYMPTOM FREE,PLEASE COUNT YOUR BLESSINGS, AND PLEASE MAKE SURE YOU HAVE WORKING SMOKE DETECTORS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

T-LYNN

[speechgeek]

I don't even now what to say...I am so sorry for the loss of your home. I too am here in Va. not too far and certainly have access to a post office. If there is anything you need I hope that you will ask.

This beast that has entered into  my life has forced me to ask for help. I never did that. i did it all! Maybe when things get under way you could set up an internet open house with a registery somewhere  like target or something. Just think about it!

Everyone is right that you need to rest as much as you can. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Rebeccah

[AMERS389]

I just read your post and I am so so sorry for your loss. A home is our heart and we spend so much time and effort to make it a home. I don't understand how the Lord works but I do believe he works all things for good. Now I kind of feel guilty for the post I just did..my problems are nothing compared to what you are going through. I know I should be so grateful for all I have been blessed with. I love seeing your faith, it encourages mine. Stay well, just take one day at a time, try to relax..ha ha  but I am sure the contractor is a God Send...it will be okay...eventually..hang in there..You are in my prayers for sure...Amers

[grannyhotwheels]

Dearest T,

Sweetie, I know exactly what you are going through.  My MS symptoms started in August of 2004.  I had to take a leave from work because once my symptoms started they didn't let up.  I was on a walker in just 3 months after onset.  

Anyway, in August I was on a leave from work, in October we lost everything in a house fire and by December I was on a walker/wheelchair.  2004 was the worst year of my life.

Like you it seemed that the whole community pulled together and I ended up with a brand new beautiful home filled with everything else brand new.  Bad things have a way of working out for the good.

The Lord works in mysterious ways but in the long run it's always for the better.

I'll be praying,
Carol

[mokibear]

GIRL YOU MADE ME CHUCKLE. SO THE STATE FIRE MARSHAL IS DO ABLE EH?  I GIVE YOU CREDIT FOR KEEPING A STRAIGHT FACE MY FRIEND AS I'M SURE I NEVER WOULD HAVE.

AT LEAST I NOW KNOW HOW TO GET RID OF THE LITTLE GREEN MEN. THE TRICK IS TO GET THEM ON MY HINEY TO SIT ON THEM AND SQUISH THEM.

I'M HOPING THE WALK THROUGH WENT OKAY FOR YOU T-LYNN. I HAVE BEEN THINKING OF YOU AND PRAYING THAT YOU ARE ALRIGHT. I CAN'T IMAGINE HOW YOU MUST FEEL.

AS FOR THE BETTER YEAR, I THINK SOMEONE SCREWED UP THERE AND I'M GOING TO HAVE A TALK WITH THE BIG GUY ABOUT THAT. LOOK AFTER YOURSELF MY FRIEND. MY THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS ARE ALWAYS WITH YOU.

HUGS
MOKI

[Barbie51]

WOW!  YOU ARE ONE AMAZING LADY, EVEN THOUGH YOU MAY NOT ALWAYS FEEL LIKE IT!  I CAN'T BEGIN TO IMAGINE WHAT YOU'VE BEEN THROUGH, BUT SO GLAD GOD IS RIGHT THERE WITH YOU!  

ALL I CAN ADD TO THE POSTS OF SO MANY OTHER CARING SOULS IS THAT I, TOO, AM THINKING OF YOU AND PRAYING FOR YOU.

LOVE,
BARB

[young at heart]

MOKI---YA MADE ME LAUGH,SPEAKING OF HINEY'S OHHHH,YOU SHOULD OF SEEN THE HINEY OF THE STATE FIRE MAESHAL,OH THAT MAN WORKS OUT.AS I AM SPEAKING WITH HIM MY NEICE TEXTS ME AND WHEN I OPEN MY PHONE MY NEICE TYPES AUNT T HE'S DO ABLE( I'D HAVE TO AGREE ). HAVE THAT SENT TO YA AND KEEP A STRAIGHT FACE.GLAD TO SEE YOUR ANSWERING POST.

YOU HAVE ONE LESS LITLE GREEN MAN,I SAT ON HIM AND SQUISHED HIM.

THE CONTRACTOR SEEMS TO BE A GOOD GUY.HECK I COULD OF MET HIM IN A GROCERY STORE OR THE MALL(LOL)

MOKI, I COULD STAY AT MY DADS BUT,THE KIDS WERE NOT FOND OF THAT IDEA.MY STEP MOTHER WOULD DRIVE THEM NUTS.

I'M TO CALL MY NEURO AND GP AFTER THE WALK THROUGH TOMORROW.I GUESS THEY ARE A LITTLE WORRIED.

I MAY POST AFTER  THE WALK THROUGH OR COME BACK TO THE HOTEL AND SLEEP WHILE NO ONE IS HERE.

MY DAUGHTER TOSSES AND TURNS AND EX STORES LIKE YOU WOULDN'T BELEIVE.EX DOESN'T WANT ME TO BE ALONE AFTER THE SMOKE IN MY LUNGS.

THANKS FOR YOUR THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS.

THIS YEAR WAS TO BE BETTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!

T