Grannyhotwheels checking in!

[grannyhotwheels]

Okay, just a little information on how my life is going right now!  I just spent about 10 minutes writing a long letter to ya'll and somewhere hit the wrong button and lost it all.  BLAH!!

Just a small bit of what I was telling you - My son, daughter-in-law, and precious Makenzie are moving to Wichita Kansas next week.  I'm so depressed about it because that little 1 year old princess has lived with me for the last 6 months and I cannot imagine my life without her.  She is the reason I get up every day.  Most of the time I'm the only one that she wants when it's time to rock a bye baby.  

She just had her shots and had to get 5 of them.  It's made her have fever and very sore arms.  Guess who she wants?  You got it!  I really and truly don't think I can function without my baby.  It's ripping my heart out.  Anyone have any suggestions?  I'm already depressed and cry all the time and they haven't even left yet.  If I ever cross any of your minds, would you please pray that the Lord will give me the strength to be strong?  I need that very much.

The one thing that does bring a smile to my face is that my daughter is due in August and I haven't missed an OB appointment yet.  I'm very involved with my daughters pregnancy, and I'm also very excited.  When she goes back to work after her delivery, I will get to babysit.  I can't wait for that.  Actually I can't wait for her to be born.  I say her, but the doctor was only about 75% sure.  That was close enough for me to go by a bunch of pink stuff. hahahaheeheehee
(I did keep the receipts)

This turned out a lot longer than I figured and for that I'm sorry.  Please, if any of you have some advice for me on how to handle this, I would really appreciate it.  My heart is breaking into a million pieces.  I want to hold her and hug her and never let go.

I pray that the spring in the air, (for some of us), has helped ya'll feel better and have less pain.

I'll be praying,
Carol

[Freespirit24]

oops there is my lost post ......................ignore that one

[Freespirit24]

Wow how wonderful to have had them there for six months and what precious memories you now have of that time. I understand it will be very hard to have them move and for the first while you will feel very lost and lonely. You have a computer hey..........and I am sure  they have one also. Now if you do not already have one get a web cam and make sure they also have one they are not expensive. You cna hook up through SKYPE or MSN

[Freespirit24]

Darn it.... Just typed a whole message and lost it closed the window by mistake..............*L*

Wow, how wonderful you had that time with your family and grand baby that is so special. Yes, of course you do not want them to go and at first it will be very hard but you will find ways to help  with those 'blue' feelings and then look forward to their visits.

You have a computer and i am assuming they do also. Get a web cam and ask them to get one if they do not already have one, they are not expensive. You can then set up to have video calls with them through MSN, Yahoo or SKYPE and it is free. You could arrange a time each day to be online and visit with Mackenzie and her family. You can talk and see each other. That may help  a little and give you something to look forward to each day. She will miss you also.

Soon too you will be very busy with the new addition. A lot to look forward to and be proud of.

Big hugs

Sarah

[sllowe]

Woooooooooo Hoooooooooooooo

FISH ON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This is great news!

[grannyhotwheels]

Thank you all so much.  Just reading all the words of encouragement means so much to me.  I'm so thankful that I have ya'll to turn to.  I also feel a little embarrassed for being so sad when some of you are going through even harder situations with your family members.  I realize that I should be thankful for every moment that I have and quit dwelling on the ones I wont have.

I was thinking that I might hire a hit man and get the other grandma out of the way so I could have more time with Makenzie.  hahahaheeheehee.  Ya'll know I'm just kidding don't you? (hmmm)  It's good to be able to laugh with ya'll about things.  It really does help.

Hey SL, yes I do love to fish, and that reminds me I do have some good news to share with ya'll.  My DH who has been working 2 jobs for what seems like an eternity, is now able to quit one of them and only work 1 job.  He is a salesman for a company that does janitorial work and also sales cleaning supplies.  Hey, everyone has gotta clean, right?  Anyway, he now finally has enough accounts that he's making very good money and is able to quit driving the postal truck.  It was the big truck that carries the mail from post office to post office.  The job pain really well but it was a split shift which started by him getting up at 3:00am 6 days a week.  He is so happy to be done with it.  Well, actually Saturday is his last day.  AMEN!

So, speaking of fishing, my DH now can take off any time he wants and he already said that he would take me fishing even if he had to carry me to the bank.  I feel sorry for him if he has to do that. haha  We also will be taking a trip or two to Wichita, I'm sure of that.

Once again thank you all for cheering me up and showing me that not all is lost.  I love you all so much.

I'll be praying,
Carol

[Rena705]

Hi Honey...sorry to hear that your granddaughter is moving away but you have another one on the way and time does go faster than we realize most times...I can't say that I can relate..no kids, no grandkids, no bad habits...tee hee

Good to have you back though...can't talk too long, just started narcotics and it is sure hard to make sense out of just about anything today...I guess it will get worse before it gets better like most things right?

Anyway, keep in touch and talk again soon and take care!

Lots of hugs,

Rena

[Heather3418]

I can FEEL your heart breaking.  I went through something similar.  I started watching my first born grandchild every weekend, when she became 2 weeks old.  I had her every weekend till she was around 2.  When her mother decided that she didn't feel the baby should be coming to my house every weekend, she just stopped.

It tore my heart out.  Come to find out, the baby was crying for her Grandpa and Grandma all the time and the mother was POed.  I swear Carol, I had trouble sleeping, my arms felt empty and I DID go through a period of the blues.  Just like I had lost my will to want to get up in the morning.

I understand EXACTLY how you are feeling.  I hope that your daughters new baby "girl" will soon fill your life, although it certainly won't take the place of MaKenzie.  As you say, "I'll be praying."   I know your heart is aching and so will your empty arms....

God love you dear sweet grandmother,

Heather

[sllowe]

Hi Granny!

Wow, that nest is going to be quiet! I'm so sorry and know you will be sad.  I can't imagine the day when mine fly the coup, let alone their future families, etc.

You sound good lady! I'm so glad you've updated.  The new pic is nice too!!!!!!!!!

Maybe you can get something sedating prescribed for those long trips! That oughta get you there quicker. I know you will be making many!  You fish right? Aw, just think of those days you'll be driving there with a shiny new pole! Gosh, hope my memory  is right w/the fishing bit. . .lol. .

Much love to you,
SL

[young at heart]

I'VE BEEN THINKING OF YOU.

I'M SORRY TO HEAR THAT YOUR DAUGHTER IS MOVING AND THE HEART BREAK YOU MUST BE ENDURING.

IT WILL BE HARD,MY DAUGHTER IS IN THE NAVY AND ITS HEART BREAKING,TALKS ON THE PHONE ARE GREAT,BUT ITS NOT THE SAME.SHE WILL BE HOME IN JUNE.

CAROL,ITS TAKING ONE DAY AT A TIME.

MY ADOPTED GRANDSON I SEEN EVERYDAY FROM BIRTH,THEN LAST JUNE ,MY ADOPTED DAUGHTERS BOYFRIEND FORBID HER TO HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH US,FINALLY AT EASTER WE SPENT THE DAY TOGETHER,SHE ALSO HAS A 3 MONTH OLD NOW.ITS HARD,CAUSE I LOVE THIS GIRL AND THESE BABIES.

I WILL SAY PRAYERS DAILY FOR YOU,PLEASE TRY NOT TO SET YOURSELF BACKWARDS WITH YOUR MS.5 HOURS SEEMS FAR,BUT IN REALITY ITS NOT.

HOPING YOUR DOING WELL

T-LYNN

[Momzilla]

Hi, Carol!

I'm so glad to hear you're back up on those Hot Legs!  Ya hooo!  Keep up the good work in PT.  It must be so hard!  You go, though, Girl!

And what do you mean "if you ever cross my mind..."  Any time I feel frustrated at my dumb doctors, I just have to think of all YOU'VE been trhough, and it inspires me.  Silly you.

I know it's going to be tough for you to start, and it will be a hard transition for everybody.  But God has made us adaptable, hasn't He?  And a monthly trip will make that time together all the more precious.  

You've been to every appointment?  How sweet!  Your daughter must feel very loved.  And that baby is going to be very lucky, too, like that beautiful Mackenzie is, to have such a doting Granny.  

I'll be praying,

Zilla*

[Want to feel well!!!]

Hang in there sweetie...it's so hard to say good-bye but thank goodness we have so much technology today so we can keep in touch with loved ones.  That’s probably not comforting now.

Hope your heart isn’t breaking too much…hug ‘em while you can!

Wanna

[denise61]

Hi, grannyhotwheels, sorry for your sadness, but as my grandma always said, trust the good lord, my grandma and i was twins, we were so much alike, every one said.  becouse I look ed  just like her. unbeliveable thing!!!  

And now i am also a grandma, to a wonderful grandson, He is the love of my life out side of my husband of all most 25 years, were has all the time went!!! my grandson and I have a remarkable bond.

he walks through the door and the first thing he says is
WHERE IS GRANDMA!!! BOY AND THERES NOTHING LIKE IT. HES ALL MOST 5!! Things will be ok!!   I also want to talk to you about that above ribs pain stuff you had going on!!! ! get this tighting heavy blotted feeling, it is under my ribs and goes to my belly button.

I got  this muscle throbing in the hot shower the other day from it. I belive you have a big muscle there!! that area is a big muscle!!!  I will talk latter,

I work nights and havent been to bed yet. my husband and i are going to the beach for a few days, and i have to be up in 5 hours... you hang in there!!

Denise61

[debj52]

hi,nice to meet you..i definitly know what your going thru...my daughter an grandson lived w/me and hubby for 5 years and than she met a guy and got married....broke my heart soooo bad...and now we live in tn. and they live in il.....positive side of it i inherited 2 grandaughters...lol....so hang in there ...it will work out ...take care ....deb

[grannyhotwheels]

Hi Maggie,

Hey, it's really great to hear from you.  How have you been doing?  I'm doing really good.  Back to using the ole' cane again.  We will see how long it lasts this time.  It always seems that I take 1 step forward and about 5 backwards.  I've been working my butt off trying to do my PT so I could get my strength back in my legs and lower back.

It was 88* here today.  I loved every minute of it.  Of course it isn't going to last, a cold front is coming through and it will be 56* for a high tomorrow.  Here goes everyone getting sick again. BLAH!

I'm glad that you precious baby is sticking around for a little while longer.  Wow, do they grow up.  My youngest child will be 14 on May 1st.  It doesn't seem possible.  He's at that real fun age right now.  Think back and you'll know what I mean.  hahaheehee

I'll be praying,
Carol

[LLWB]

I know exactly how you feel. I won't go into it here, but my prayers are with you. I truly know from experience how hard it is. My precious baby is graduating high school in June. I thought he was going away to college right away, and I was very depressed, but fortunately for me he's going to do a year at the community college first here in town. So I get a reprieve. It's hard enough when they are grown, but having a little one move away is very hard. But God will see you through it. Just trust in Him, and you will get through it.  Looking forward to a new baby in the family is always an exciting time. Hope you are physically feeling okay, and the legs are better. (((((hugs)))) Maggie

[grannyhotwheels]

Amen to that sister!

Wichita is about a 5 hour drive for us.  Of course with me a 5 hour trip turns into an eight or nine hour drive. hahaheehee

They will be able to come home once a month (maybe).  When your used to seeing that precious little smile every single day, a month can be eternity.  

I think Rid is for lice isn't it? hahahaheeheehee  That really made me laugh.

I'll be praying,
Carol

[Quixotic1]

Ahhhhhh, Granny.  I'm so sorry you'll be separated from your little one.  How long a drive is it?  Wichita (my birth city) is in the south.  Surely you'll still get to see her!  Wishing time will fly until the new little one is born.  And pink can always be dyed to purple.  Just have a box of Rid.....make that Rit on hand.

((((((HUGS))))))  Quix

I have recently had two long, epic discourses sent into cyberspace where someday they will land on someone's computer and mystify the h*ll out of them.  Oh, well.  I've learned to highlight and copy to clipboard every couple paragraphs so that I can retrieve most of what I have written.

If I know it is going to be long then I write it in Wordpad (simplest wordprocessor in existence and save it in Rich Text Format - then copy and paste into my post.  Life is too short to have to write something twice!

[grannyhotwheels]

By the way, don't mind the date on Makenzie's picture.  I always forget to reset it.  The picture was taken around the second week of March.  She's 1 year old, as of the 24th of Feb.  and weights 25lbs. and 8oz.  Is she just not the most precious little princess you have ever laid eyes on?