That would make the most sense. Maybe I'll start a therapy programme for doctors, like they do for those trying to recover from being abducted by a cult. Or, more fun for me, a dominatrix special descreet service, some of them do get excited when they see my whip.
Well... let's start with the eye hospital old f a r t. Sxuse the language. He is so far gone I don't even bother fighting with him, even when he insulted me. He'll be retired in a few years, and in a nursing home shortly after, maybe with me looking after him :) Had the eye test at another dept, and kept getting told to ignore the double vision as the optometrist was trying to test my eyes. Yes, great value that test, entirely ignoring a symptom because it is interfering with the results. Then the visual field test. The doc who did it said clearly to me there were bad results in the eye that was the problem. And? The old genius took over and dilated my eyes to examine them and then told me there was nothing organically wrong to explain my eye pain, despite my having seen them several times.
The several times were mostly visits where I went straight back home again as the doc couldn't see me, or were to assess my double vision. He was of the generation that did not say "I don't know", but just declared what he didn't see or couldn't be bothered with didn't exist. So all done there - except - he wanted to refer me back to the neurology hospital to see his colleague there. Apparently it would seem perhaps his colleague does not have enough to do, as there is nothing wrong with me. So, after lying about my visual field results, declaring me as having a non-organic problem, his solution is for me to see someone in another hospital. You've got to pity these people.
My on-off love-hate neurologist saga...He is getting quite insistant now that he is my doctor, and no-one else shall have me. He wrote again privately and said he saw no evidence of MS. Great. Except he is not qualified in that area and as I tried to explain diplomatically to him even if it is not MS such a specialist is by definition an expert at interpreting white matter brain lesions and unusual clinical signs and symptoms. This neurologist I have knows a great deal about a condition I do not have, his decleration of no evidence of any other condition is only slightly more useful than mine. And if all is so fine, why the chasing after me with his butterfly net thing?
Such pity coming from my compassionless heart to these damaged men, it's painful. Actually not so bad.
Had the steroid injection into my leg appointment moved forward. Not looking forward to it. Hope it helps.
Am in trouble at work, for a change. Helped myself to facilties I am not senior enough to use. Made a cup of coffee in the wrong kitchen because I was in a hurry and didn't want to trek over to my own. Gossip spread like wildfire, until it was retold as two cups of coffee, then later retold as regular trips, and then...who knows what else I may have done in there, started an illegal coffee laundering business, poisoning the water supply...? I keep forgetting how totally institutionlized some hospital staff can be. Had I killed several patients I would have been gossiped about less methinks.
Am hardly there, no-one seems to notice. They're barely paying me, not training me, and only really notice me when I step out of line. Not quite a dream job, but am learning lots about how to read radiology reports, with the exception of my own.
Blogging away here. And I promised to respond to posts. Just being selfish. Do read a few here and there though, so am getting back into the swing of the forum.
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