I have a bit of a strange question - I haven't been online for a while, trying to deal with what is going on with me and no closer to finding out what. The GP still has not arranged for the neuro appt. In the mean time, I'm still getting the same things, a few new things have occured.
Recently I was having trouble with my speech and my typing, when I talked it was like someone else was talking, it is so weird but i could not feel myself talking, I could hear it, but it was some kind of depersonalised feeling. Also, I am struggling to type the correct keys now - I get some kind of carpal tunnel symptoms from typing fast, I normally type 80wpm with little mistakes, at the moment I am making lots of mistakes when I type, hitting the wrong keys, this is someone who can touch type. Some days I am ok and other days I really struggle.
The other night it felt like my tongue was spasming a little when I spoke, causing me to stammer.
I have also been getting a twitch in the back of my neck. Usually when I go to turn my head it happens. I do notice that when I am angry or anxious it does it more often than normal, but sometimes it can happen out of nowhere. But I get lots of them in a row when I am anxious or angry. Sometimes I get it when I go to take a sip of my drink. It is scary. I've had the twitch in the back of my neck for years. It would usually happen maybe once a month or so but now it is almost every day. In two weeks I think I have had two days where it has not happened, three days where it has happened once that day, and the rest of the time it has been happening lots, mostly in the evenings.
I'm getting such random things. Recently, like a few days ago I started getting red fingertips, they're red all the time. It looks like raynaud's in a way because when I am cold they go darker like purpley colour but usually they're dark pink. I get one hand colder than the other all day too.
I had none of this before I had my baby! I did have paresthesias etc... before the baby but not during the pregnancy. The cardiovascular symptoms came on after the birth, as did the visual disturbances which began on the day I gave birth. I have had a number of examinations, I had a neurological basic exam by a GP (balance, looked into my eyes, checked my ears, told me to touch my nose etc...) and all looked perfect. I have also noticed that my pupils which were uneven stopped being uneven for a few days, then today, I was getting my hair cut and when my hair was over my eye, that pupil got bigger. I do tend to wear my hair to one side so it MAY be caused by my hair, the GP did suggest that may be the cause. I have been wearing my hair back for a few days and my pupils looked fine.
I am getting all sorts of sensations though which are scary, I'm holding on to each day waiting for the neuro appt. I haven't been out of the house for 3 weeks now, just concentrating on my job (I work from home).
My mother said she had similar problems to me all her life from her 30's onwards. She was never diagnosed with MS, she was told that she had Ankylosing Spondilitis which became apparent years after a car accident, however, one GP thought she may have MS and suggested she had an MRI but she refused it.
A close friend of mine's mother has MS also and we talked the other night, she thinks I may have it, that or CFS. I know what does scare me and I try not to think about it, my mind is all over the place with what it could be.
Is there any free online counselling available where I could write to about these symptoms and the emotional state it is getting me in? I have asked my GP for a counsellor and again, I'm on a waiting list, I've been told it will be about 18 months before I get a counsellor through the NHS round here. (UK)