i would rather *** sorry!
well i wouldnt rather be anorexic and have nice clothes on me then being 14 and 280 pounds ! =[
Hi Amber,
I really feel for you. I'm so happy to read that you are getting help and are maintaining your weight. I do not have anorexia but for years I stuggled with bulemia. I am 47 now and the bulemia was back when I was in my late teens and into my 20's. I know that my problem stemmed from a poor self esteem and body image. I was overweight all my life and just in the last couple of years have found a happy medium. Mostly, though, I love myself no matter what.
I would go out and get drunk and the next day eat crazy, like you. I thing the alcohol would dehydrate me and I'd want salty things. I would not purge on those days. Looking back I realize that I wanted to punish myself by eating poorly. I think I felt guilty for drinking like that. Anyway, if you eat a healthy diet on a more regular basis and then on the day after getting drunk you eat poorly your body may be reacting to the toxins in the food. It's just a thought.
I think you should look into why you are drinking. Sometimes we do things like drink and take drugs to escape something we find hard to handle. I hope that when you get into your individual therapy that you talk, talk, talk about everything that bothers you and your fears about the anorexia.
Good luck to you!