i am such a mess right now

[zoe00]

i am such a mess right now, i am having constant pain in my knees, elbows, hips, ankles, wrist, fingers, shoulders, and neck....  i go to a pm doctor for my back and neck and he has prescribed me vicode 10/5 and a muscle relaxer i tried talking to him telling him about my knees, elbows, etc he took two blood test and told me if they come back fine then i am fine.... which really upset me because i don't want to be going to a doctor who isn't going to help me... i almost feel as i he doesn't believe me... my husband doesnt understand at all.. he says its all in my head and that i take too many pills... which i do take more than i am supposed to some days but ihurt....my arms hurt after doing laundry, doing dishes, my legs hurt and burn and ache from going up and down our steps... my neck just constantly aches, and burns and i get headaches all the time... i don't sleep....i wakeup at all times during the night my hands feeliing like someone is shoving needle through them, my elbows throbbing, my hips aching... i don't understand what is happeing to me and i am sooo scared and i feel so alone... if it wasn't for my 3 yr old son i would probably give up... my family is like my husband they don't believe me... its like because i don't have a broken leg or something and they can't see it they can't understand... but they see the pain in my face in my eyes.... but i don't think they want something to be wrong which neither do i so they just believe that i like taking the pills... which i have never ever in my life even taken anything stronger than tylenol before this point in my life i only drink on special occasions i don't understand why this is happening to me....i don't know what to do anymore or how to cope.... i feel lost somehow....like i'm falling apart and losing everything that is important to me.... the cold weather seems to make my body hurt 10 times worse... has anyone ever heard of anything like this?? does anyone have a clue what it is that i could do or who i need to talk to? any input would be wonderful.... thank you

[zoe00]

yes i definately agree i would love for him to feel the way any of us do for a week...actually for just a day when its a bad day... but then i feel horrible for wishing it on someone else...because honestly somedays i feel as if im living in my own personal hell....i went to my family doctor todaybecause he ran some test and they all cameback negative so he said he believes that i have fibromyalgia.... or myalgia? i don't know... i just wish i could go back to being my normal me.. before all of this but then i imagine everyone does.. i don't feel as if there is a end in sight or even a hope somedays..today is a rough day i guess its just hard to deal with it all, you know?  he prescribed me ultram?  i'm going to get off here and look it up ilike to know for sure what i am taking before i ever touch it...you know the odd thing before a year ago i never took anything more than a tylenol or ibuprofen.,.. never did drugs... i only drink on special occasions... and here i am in pain constantly and having to take these pills...i hate  it my family all act as if am a pill popper... and i would give anything in this world to never take another one again...
thank you again for everything how are you by the way?  you said your dad was having problems? i feel so rude not asking! you all listen to me so anytime you need to vent or anything feel free... i know i need ppl like you guys... any use i can be to you would make me feel better too...

zoe

[Tuckamore]

I am sorry that you had a bad night. OI hope you know that the Tips for Dealing with Ppl in Pain was mean for you and everyone else.

I am hopeful that you will find the consult with the rheumatologist to be beneficial. The physician that told you to "deal with it" does not sound like he is very empathetic. Sometimes I would love to give these Docs my pain (or your pain) for just a week. Let them "deal" with it. I truly believe there would be more compassion and empathy extended to their patients. Maybe a week isn't long enough because if you know there is an end, I think it's easier to handle.

Thank you for keeping us current with your symptoms. I hope you will find some releif and very soon.

[zoe00]

thank you so much for that letter i am definately going to print it out and give it to my family... it made me cry when i was reading it... it fits me to the T almost.... thank you for reaching out...i appreciate everyone on here that takes just a moment to read and respond you guys are all wonderful thank you again

[zoe00]

hello, how are you today?  today hasn't been the best for me... i woke up around 4 hurting had an app with my pm doctor today he said the 2 blood test he ran came back fine and there is nothing he can do for me he said "you know your own body more than i do there is nothing i can prescribe you so deal with it."  i was completely and utterly blow away.... i just don't understand.... i told him i didn't want him to prescribe me anything else i want to know what is wrong with me... he said i will see you in 2 months goodbye.... so i am now going to find another doctor because i dont think he truly wants to help me... what do you think?  i just feel that i am dealing with enough now... more than i can really handle and then the doctor *someone who is supposed to help me* tells me that its my body i know more about it than he does deal with it?!?!?! wow...the more i think about it the more i am blown away....he is a doctor, isn't that what doctors do? help ppl figure out what is wrong with them?  thank god i have a rheumatologist appointment because i really belive in my heart that the rheumatologist my help me... i have to believe that....talk to you soon i hope...


zoe

[1tiredchic]

That really is true what this says and what you say! Thanks for the encouragement! I thank goodness no longer have the hepatitus at least my liver is back down to good levels(it was the tylenol too much)it was at 230 at the time. I still am undiagnosed all i know is that i have widespread inflammation and chronic pain.(the blood test says 80% of people with the High IgA level and atypical panca have chrohn's so unfornutly it doesn't look promising.(colonoscopy though in March) I need to get in to see a rheumatologist I think that i had an infection that has gone haywire.(ive had tooth infections &pelvic recent that were hard to treat) hence all the antibiotics and tylenol that caused the flare with the liver. I also have high sed rate rate now and low calcium,vitamin d and high bun/creatitiine level so it is all confusing.On top of all that sleep apnea (oh boy!) thanks for listening! it is true though co-workers will ask how have you been feeling (sometimes i just want to say fine , because if i try to explain i get that look. you all know that look)sometimes it's best not to say anything/I'm glad i found this site.Please feel free to post me anytime all and tell me how you truly feel I will listen....

[NoMoMeth4me]

Agreed!!!